阿当海洋

感動..

2012-01-12T16:50:00.002+08:00

今天在同事介紹的網上影片連接到了另一個讓我很感動感觸地影片. 想和有緣人分享一下. :)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tZ46Ot4_lLo&feature=fvwrel
(取自於YOUTUBE網站)

"天將降大任於斯人也，必先苦其心志，勞其筋骨，餓其體膚，空乏其身".此話用在影片中的年輕人當真不虛.我敬佩他.

希望他從此能活得好好的.心想事成!

鍏筆止.

成人的世界

2011-11-15T23:17:00.002+08:00

當它一直在走的時候,雖然以很慢的步伐,很渺小的單位,讓你可以很簡單地清楚地跟它一起數著它的腳步..1..2..3..4..其是,你已經在忽略著它.這一種緩慢的,這一種不經覺的走動..逐漸,你已經忘了是你在追隨著它還是它一直牽著你,那怕是強硬的,一直去到一個有一個不同的階段.很自然地,在你的人生筆記本裡添上一頁又一頁的旅程記錄.

今年,2011年,我已經28歲了.甚麼時候,每每有甚麼酒席宴會,父母或者長輩都會因為要共居一席,特易安排我們較年輕的另入它席;那時候,他們或者我們自己都會說,"你們大人一桌,我們小孩子一桌."偶爾,長輩們要聚一聚,都會說,"我們大人今天要一起打麻將,你們小孩子看家.";"他們大人是醬的","他們大人是那樣的"....現在,改口了..

我看著父母一天一天的衰老,很折騰,很辛苦.他們是,我也一樣...不一樣的,一個是身,一個是心..

總覺得怎麼陪他們都不夠,自己卻也得需要時間安排自己的瑣瑣碎碎.需要我的,不只有他們.可是,真的好希望,能多陪他們.雖然不知道,他們需要我怎樣個陪法.原來看著自己心愛的人,逐漸老去,真的很不好受...是我想多了?還是..這是正常的?

現在,我自己是當年口中的大人了.偶爾會打打麻將,喝喝啤酒,發發對工作和生活的牢騷.已經不再有簡簡單單要求,不再因為有巧克力就能讓一天過得很開心了.

1個小時,是多麼的渺小,更別說是5分鐘,甚麼是一秒鐘?光放空,就得10分鐘了..越大,時間越快.時間越快,人就越大...到了人的步伐慢了,才再重新聽清楚,每一秒的滴答是多麼的清晰.

我到底想說甚麼了??

對了! 成人的世界,很複雜.是我把它複雜化?不對..是因為要扮演的角色和份量越來越沉重.知道的東西越來越多,要把握的東西也越來越多..

我發現,原來我在部落格里謝了很多很多愁善感,特別是屬近來的幾篇.我想,我內心應該是思緒很複雜的人.可是面對著其他人的時候,我應該是純粹是個愛惡搞的傢伙,笑點很低和很不正經的人.因為我想在這個繁華的成人世界中,尋找一些簡單的"景點",讓自己過的簡單些,舒服些...

煒筆止.

[转帖] 老公，我走了，请你好好爱她~

2011-09-23T10:54:00.000+08:00

对不起，我终于狠下心来和你说离婚了..

一直以来我都是个懦弱的女人..
我用尽心力的守著我门的婚姻，为你烧你爱吃的菜，为了买你喜欢的CD，
为你把一切都弄得很好，给了你我所能给的幸福。
而我从未和你提过任何要求，我怕你觉得我烦。
可现在我想通了，相恋在久的感情都敌不过几小时的一见鐘情..

第一次看到你和她的照片是在音乐网站上，第一次见到她是在你和他离开的酒店门口..
第一次听你提起她是在我们结婚3周年纪念晚会上.. 那真是一个美丽的女孩..

我偷看了你给她写的邮件，里面的每一句话真的好甜蜜，好感人..
我看著看著就哭了，我骗自己，这是你写给我的，
你永远是爱我的，你怎麼可能和别人爱得那麼深呢？
是啊！你没有提离婚，我怎麼敢说，我怕说了就真的，永远永远都没有你了..

老公，我真的很爱你，很爱这个家。所以你不说，我也什麼都不问。
只是在你睡了以后慢慢的哭，你知道吗？
我想谢谢你，谢谢你陪了我那麼多年，我知道你很爱她，就向我爱著你那样。
你没说过离婚，我已经很庆幸了，至少你还是會回家陪我，会吃著我做的饭菜，傻傻的笑..

至少你还记得..
回家给我一个拥抱，记得我的生日！
我觉得够了，真的..
我爱著你，包容著她..
我以为我们可以就这样相安无事的永远相处下去，
直到你昨晚和我讲了一个故事..

你说：
我有一个朋友，他已经结婚6年了。
他有个很好的太太，一直以来他都爱著他的太太，可4年前他遇到了一个美丽的女孩。
女孩对他很好，给了他太太所没有的激情。于是他们恋爱了，偷偷摸摸却又热烈的爱著。
女孩很懂事，和他在一起那麼久从来没有提过结婚之类的事。
他依旧爱著太太，只是那已经是属于2个女人的爱了。
他不会拋弃他的太太，因为太太对他太好了，好得找不到分手的理由，找不到伤害她的借口。
可现在女孩怀孕了。女孩和他提出了结婚。
女孩跟了他4年，把女人最美好的东西都给了他，他没办法拒绝女孩，可又无法拋弃爱他的妻子..

故事到这就结束了，
你问我：你说他该怎麼办？
我没有说话。我知道这是你和他之间的故事。这是你最无奈的选择..

昨晚你睡觉之后，我在旁边看著你，看著你好看的脸..
看著你熟睡的样子，你睡得真甜。
我吻了你，在你身上小心的留下几百个吻，我知道这是最后一次了..
亲爱的，我的泪一滴一滴的落在你胸口，漫漫化开.. 一滴一滴的落在了我碎掉的心上..

亲爱的，我走了..
我知道我的离开才是最好的结局..
我不在你身边，自己要好好照顾自己。
我把家里收拾干凈了。饭在电饭堡里，回来以后记得自己热热吃了，这是最后一次给你做饭了..
记得不要因为工作常长饿著，对身体不好，还有你有胃病，别和朋友出去喝酒，少吸点烟..
我帮你定了1年的牛奶，他们会直接送到家里的，记得要热过才可以喝..
你想买的CD我也买了，就放在电脑桌上..

还有什麼？
对了，这个家里的东西我什麼都没带走，除了你第一次送给我的礼物，
那只绒线小熊，我已经习惯抱著它睡觉了..
以后它可以陪著我，抱著它我会感觉到你的..

我走了，离开的时候心里很痛，我们住了6年的房子，6年的家，我和它说再见..
我爱了那麼多年的你，我想和你说：祝福！

老公，我走了以后你要好好爱她，知道吗？
不要在爱情里伤害任何人了..
一定要对她很好很好，就象我对你那样..
帮我吻你们的孩子，我想他一定会很漂亮的.. 告诉他，我会祝福他的..

我依旧爱著你..
只是从今天开始，我们就各分东西..

NOTE: 转帖 FROM http://cforum6.cari.com.my/viewthread.php?tid=2513847.
後繼: 我會銘記於心.

意志薄弱

2011-03-29T23:17:00.002+08:00

意志薄弱,卻逞強..

很奇怪,我是怎麼了? 沒有安全感? 信心? 還是害怕?

管不了那麼多..隨遇而安.

或許...或許....

煒筆止.

矛盾

2011-03-27T23:03:00.003+08:00

有些事,有些時候,有些人....不,應該說,所有的事情(不關甚麼時候,甚麼人)都會有至少兩面的觀點.取至於哪面,視乎你怎麼去評估,取捨.然而,得失,我認為,是必有的.

或許,有人覺得,只要得大於失,那,做出的抉擇是必然的,是對的.

可是,自古至今,有谁能說的准,是非錯對.在認為錯的人眼中,你不應該,卻為何還有人認同你的做法?當然,大是大非,或許界線明然.但是,個人的決定,大概只有你自己才能定奪對錯輸贏.

如果有一天,你發現,你給予乞丐的一些錢,解救不了他的困難,你給是不給?

如果有一天,你發現,你看到的風景只有現在,你還看不看?

那如果,你看到一個可憐的生命,很痛苦地在掙扎..它不會有以後,你會替它了結嗎?

嗯....
只是一點想法,雖然很悲觀..但是,是種矛盾.

煒筆止.

社會進步,人心退化

2010-07-19T17:43:00.003+08:00

真的很可悲,可嘆啊.. 哀哉!!

常聽父母訴說上一輩的趣事,為了錦上添花,補上了自己的想像力,把當時的情景人物,極其量地從現腦海.畫面裡到處雖然荒野,可是綠油油,動植物到處可見.松鼠不是在電線桿上遛達,蜥蜴不會困在水溝,小鳥不會棲息在屋頂..屋子簡陋且相隔以丈為計,然而鄰居當真守望相助.彼此屋子前門後門皆不用上鎖,就算陌路人要借道,也可直進後出卻也不以為意.這等簡單的人心,讓當時的人們活得多暢快.

相比之下,現在的文明讓大家都繫上了枷鎖絆羈.屋子雖然鄰近,每個人卻住在自己的牢房裡.鐵花籬笆圍了一層有一層,厚厚地,彷彿安全措施永遠不足.鄰居甚少相識,話也聊不上幾句.叮嚀小孩家屬的不是"在外頭小心",而是"出門前記得把門鎖好!"

樹木不斷被筏,原野總是開闢了一片又一片.動物們橫死街頭,流離失所.蝴蝶蚱蜢更是難得才見得到.以前聽過一個笑話,"以後的孩子只能在書本或電視上看見活著的雞是長甚麼樣子的."先下,不難想像了,也不覺得此話有什麼好笑,只會更添悲哀...

最近發生了兩件事,讓我倍感此嘆.我,借了朋友澳幣500.沒說甚麼,只因他說錢被偷了,沒錢交房租.借了之後,跟身邊的人提起,才得知被騙了.他不只揮霍,更習以為常地向人借錢了.當時,真不好受.$500或許不算很多,可是是勞力血汗賺回來的.不想被騙走..家人更替我擔心,或許是劉備借荊州,一借不回頭...唉..說實在,此事困擾了我一段時間.被騙走很不好受,加上我正努力存錢,省吃儉用地.卻莫名為了幫人讓自己變了凱子..

然而,好在事情有轉機.兜兜轉轉地,我成功收回了$400.還有一百,我想是拿不回得了.不過總算把損失降至$100.當作破財擋災吧..也還好有貴人相助,我也不是以為非的作法或取巧收回來.是他自己弄錯了,才陰差陽錯的還給了我..隨後,他還致電給我,向我討回$200.可是,我拒絕了.我,不想再做凱子.只少,不想再被認為是凱子.以後,不要再幫人了? 唉~

讓我更疑惑的是第二件事.這幾天,生病了.病情起起落落,好不起來.可是勉強還是去工作了.在餐館打工不容易.很多事情得兼顧,再者,我們這些有經驗的,更是要能者多勞.可恨的是,對別人好,幫人是不會得到回報地.以前的,好人有好報,現在不管用了.有一個同事,一向來好吃懶做,甚麼麻煩事情總會想辦法避之後快.大家都知道他這副德性了,只是懶得去理他.大家只管做好自己的本分,他懶得做,谁有空就補上算了.有一樣差事,卻是男子才做的,就是去補倉.其中買汽水最為麻煩,因為很重而且得搬上二樓.他最會避開此事.每每被喚去買,都會轉交我去.平時,倒無所謂,你不去,我有領薪水,我去.最記得是有一次,他告訴我說他不舒服,叫我替他去.我一句話都沒說,就立刻幫他.昨天,我工作的時候,帶著病態得身子上班,他走來叫我去買.而且是要買14箱汽水,6盒大雪糕,3瓶大牛奶.外頭還下著雨...

我說,"不是吧?你叫個病人去買東西?"他回我說,"拜託你了."

我不再說甚麼.我去買了.由於手推車載不下那麼多貨,得往返兩次.第一次回來的時候,我說我遲些再去第二趟,不想淋太多雨,不然生病更難好.他也只回我說,"好的."當真無言...朋友?說不上吧?同事..嗯..是同事吧了.所以,我也不會客氣了.去了第二趟,回來我就說,"下次,不要跟我說甚麼不舒服,要我替你去."他不再作聲.我不是跟他翻臉,我只是劃清界線.以後,我不會再幫你,也別妄想我會幫你.我們只是同事.事後,我如往常般,沒給任何臉色他看,也沒說甚麼,如往常般工作.有需要說話,還是會跟他講話.結果,淋到多少雨.頭痛復發,好辛苦..

唉...為甚麼會這樣?曹操說,"寧我負天下人,莫天下人負我!"劉備卻意,"寧天下人負我,莫我負天下人."我很敬佩劉備的仁義,雖然有些過於迂腐,但是難道真要如曹操的宗旨才算聰明人?

Michael Jackson唱了很多很多社會在變質,地球在滅亡的歌.試圖以他的名氣,喚醒大家的糊塗.可是他默默地裡開了.糊塗依然....

這樣的社會,我該怎樣教育下一代?爸爸媽媽的道理,我還傳誦不傳誦..

煒筆止.

我不會忘記你,爺爺.

2010-06-03T19:17:00.002+08:00

2分鐘前..看到女朋友4個未接電話,短訊叫我回電.沒想到,是最壞消息.爺爺相繼去世了..
打電話給媽媽的時候,我實在忍不住了.眼淚奪框湧出..泣不成聲...

回憶起跟爺爺一起相處,一起住的日子.爺爺很疼我,小時候,總會騎腳踏車載我兜圈子,只因我喜歡.
學習打羽球,也是爺爺教的.爺爺總愛煎薄餅給我們吃,只因我們說過很好吃..

愛嘮叨,愛碎碎念的他..以前我總是表面敷衍背後做鬼臉地陽奉陰違.當然不至於討厭,但就回盡量避之後快.
以前爺爺脾氣很不好,加上傳統觀念很深,小孩子愛鬧,總會被扭耳朵.小的時候都會怕爺爺,可是也跟爺爺有過很多很搞笑,很美好的回憶.

曾經跟爺爺說過,等我回去再帶他一起去吃早餐,吃點心..爺爺,為甚麼不等我?為甚麼不讓我再盡點孝意?媽媽說,幾天前爺爺已經情況不佳.一直咳出血來..我知道你一定辛苦了.希望對你來說是一種解脫..

爺爺,我好想你..謝謝你對我的愛,對我的關懷,對我嘮叨..謝謝你的禮物.我會好好珍惜.這一枚戒指,也跟隨我一段時間了.我不會讓它不見的.

最後,原諒我不能看著你走.你好好上路,不孝孫煒榮為你祈禱 .

爺爺,拜拜...

煒筆止.

惡夢.再臨

2010-05-13T21:05:00.005+08:00

是甚麼時候開始,我好像迷失了..生活轉折起伏,波動難靜.新鮮事物不停穿插在歲月當中.思緒焦點都不及沉澱,卻又被其他的事情有所擾亂.每天似乎精采,卻也猶如蹉跎.我是不是都在走馬看花,抑或在盲目地追求甚麼?總覺得錯過了些甚麼...還是多愁善感了?

這一年,2010年..對我來說,打擊重重.盡是不如意..面對的問題苦惱,一浪接一浪.站起來,再摔倒,再爬起,再碰牆,再癒合,再滑落,再攀起,再...我,覺得很辛酸,很無奈..我知道這些是人生路途中,一些很微不足道的崎嶇,可是,就是在這種,這種經過,叫人痛苦...

我..很不希望會這樣.已經有了一次,可以不要讓我再那麼痛苦一次?我又要再一次自己面對?難道真的要這樣來磨練?我可以任性地說不......嗎?

得到消息,畫面閃逝不斷.眼眶模糊,哽咽了...好想讓眼淚帶著悲傷留下來..可是不想讓自己那麼難看.心裡充澈不捨與悲痛.這種滋味,很苦,很痛,真的很痛....我想說,"我好辛苦啊...."

我想釋放..奈何? 心..不斷絞痛.

腦海裡不斷提醒自己,理智為根."煒榮,你撐得住!"

我會努力的..你也要努力.等我...

煒筆止.

沒信心...

2010-05-01T18:32:00.001+08:00

真糟糕..對那一個科目真的沒信心.為甚麼會這樣?為甚麼要這樣?不知道會不會這麼刁鑽.希望會順利一些...不要再一次,衰收尾.....

沮喪.....

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又失眠..

2010-04-20T03:04:00.002+08:00

最近不知怎麼了...總是睡不好..想早些睡覺,偏偏會在凌晨時分,忽然醒了過來.然後就徹夜難眠了.

兼職也開始了,體力上的累,或許不難補充,可是精神上好想不是那麼樂觀.朋友們幾乎每個都說我看起來很累.奇怪了..到底怎麼了.肝火盛?有暗病?還是不知覺中有在擔心甚麼?應該也沒有..今天作業都交了,presentation也完成了.應該能稍作喘息的.可是心情黯然,連睡眠也不甚好. 可惡~

不知道大家好不好?最近也倍感落寞.覺得不管在做甚麼,意義都不大,沒什麼意思.囧~

超無聊的...或許相交之下,這種只是小事吧.那天看了+-2度的短片.人造衛星拍攝到北極,因為全球暖化,冰地都融化了.北極熊沒辦法在縮減的冰地上找尋食物,更無法在變闊的海洋游至其它冰地上覓食,結果竟然出現殺食同類,把幼小的北極熊給吃了.畫面竟然還照著北極熊叼著小北極熊的頭顱..看了真的好心酸..

全球暖化,急速惡化中.嗯...難道真的如人口中所傳2012年會末日?雖然不太相信,畢竟太快了吧?怎麼說都好,工業革命,人類對生命生活日以劇增的要求,要愛護地球而捨棄這種自私的傷害,幾乎不太可能.怎樣才能放的下?除非大家都開始敲經念佛吧?哈哈哈..

煒筆止.

空歡喜

2010-03-26T16:52:00.002+08:00

事情又回到了原點.一切如夢..天降喜事,也得看你有沒有福份去占有.

罷了,命裡有時總需有,命裡無時莫強求.

路還是要走.從新再出發~

煒筆止.

不可思議的日子..

2010-03-17T18:34:00.003+08:00

一個決定,一段旅程.終點遙不可及,懵然前進.前路隨著一步一步的探索,進入眼簾的卻不過短短的數尺距離.心情長時間在這種未知的前景中徘徊.我,有時候還在問自己.."為甚麼我會在這裡?"

是因為忐忑所以迷失了一開始的決定,還是因為看不到自己走向那一個方向所以疑惑?

2009年過去了.我的休息站..又建成了.本來在馬來西亞的時候就想寫上這一篇...卻一直醞釀不出來那種心情.現在,我想..是時候了吧?2009年..是我人生中最大轉折的一年.不可思議的日子,一直不斷的出現..

一夜之間,張開眼睛的時候,我已經身在離開馬來西亞5千多公里以外的國家,澳洲,了.感受不切,感觸不大..有點茫然.心情意外的平靜.跟著安排,來到了表弟的住處.一住就是11個月左右.在這個陌生的地方,開始了另一個決然不一樣的生活.雖然科技拉近了人們的距離,可是,也會讓人的心靈蒙上了一定的空虛..這就是11個月來的感覺.雖然聲音就在耳邊,卻很虛幻..一點也不真實.一段噓寒問暖後,總會換來更黯然的寧靜,更添孤單..

一個人的生活也不是真的那麼糟糕.有著不一樣的嘗試,不一樣的生活態度,不一樣的決定跟空間.我嘗試了很多在馬來西亞或許嘗試不到的事物.我進餐館打工,我嘗試過凌晨獨自步行15公里以上的路(花了兩小時)回家.我嘗試了騎單車上下課,我嘗試了照顧自己生活裡的一切,嘗試了在海外念書的生活,嘗試了被洗劫一空的滋味,也嘗試了放開心情...走在不認識的路上,尋找不認識的光景.

這段時間,經歷了很多,也錯過了不少.但我相信,值得的.希望身邊的人也認同.2009年,為我帶來更大的不一樣,更屬末年的兩個月.放棄了原有的機會,抱著期待興奮的心情..去了鳥不生蛋的農場郊區做苦工.窮途並非末路,絕處也可以逢生(好想跨張了..不過真的與世隔絕)..在那種地方,不嘗試過的人,或許會覺得很有趣.試過了,才知道真正的意義.緣份夾著幾分運氣,讓我遇上了不可多得的朋友.我很慶幸我會說中文,因為這讓我交上了他們.

當中,有三位朋友是最要好的.ALLEN, JOANNE, 還有SANDY.跟ALLEN的認識是最奇怪的.雖然才剛認識,就能無所不談.他是我認識這麼多朋友當中,為人真的沒話好說的一個.在農場當中,也被公認為大好人的"外勞".皮膚格外黝黑,有著跟實際年齡不符的臉孔..沒聽說過有谁對他的為人有意見.只知道,很多人都喜歡跟他來往.真不簡單..JOANNE是ALLEN的女朋友.愛玩可是懂得分寸,愛惡搞可是細心周到,有大姊的風範.SANDY,屈強堅悍,體貼友善,堅持和很有意力的一個女生,讓我生敬.如果不是他們,我想..在農場的日子..不是那麼好過.

隨著他們,我也嘗試了去悉尼跨年.漫長的等待,換來15分鐘的喝采..值得嗎?也不然,因為..我想要的經驗和旅程不是只有那15分鐘..在這裡,要謝謝農場認識的朋友們.以後,希望還能多多承蒙你們的關照.也祝各位以後的旅程稱心如意,心想事成,健康快樂.

2010年,我回到馬來西亞.雖然只是短短的8個禮拜左右,卻是那麼的豐富.我沒試過在那麼短的時間裡和這麼多的朋友聚集拉哈.也沒試過一天吃上7餐,更沒試過當這麼忙的閒人.每一天都有任務在身,都會在做跟自己不太大關係的東西.不過感覺還不錯..

現在..開學了.兼職還沒找到.身上的錢,所剩無幾.心情卻好不容易平復.馬來西亞的渡假,讓剛回到澳洲的自己很消沉.還好台灣朋友在前幾天也還在左右.有他們的陪伴,心情調整也比較快.步伐開始恢復了..

不可思議的事情,又發生了..

今天,遇到上個學期的朋友.早前她找過我,可是因為當著很忙的閒人,沒有好好跟她聊.原來她的公司總裁要找我.上次因為做作業,有訪問過她.她對我印象良好,希望請我做她公司的一位經理.可能負責MARKETING多,但是還會包含其他方面.她的公司是NURSING HOME,想進軍HOSPITAL的業務,希望我能進她公司,一起為這個理想打拼.我聽了,真的很意外.有一種無法相信的感覺..真的是超屌的!而且還說,願意做我的擔保人,替我申請工作準證,直到我拿到PR為止.太酷了!!真的是超開心的..

心裡一直很興奮!一心想等晚上跟家人還有女朋友講這件事情.討論一下.谁知道...突然接到姊姊的來電..說婆婆..快不行了...打了電話給在醫院的堂哥,詢問了詳情.婆婆的心臟和肺衰竭..沒得醫了.剛掛電話,又受到堂哥的短訊..婆婆走了...

心情微微地波動.還算平靜..眼眶微濕..可是不會想哭.跟婆婆相處日子不多.以前還不太懂事時,就沒住在婆婆家了.見面也是偶爾..婆婆以前的溫柔..逐漸淡忘了..在馬來西亞,婆婆跌倒入院..探望她的時候,還餵她吃東西.精神雖然普通,可是血壓血糖都恢復正常水平.沒想到..突然間會這樣..唉...

今天跟明天..到底相差多遠?是一秒鐘,還是86399秒?2010年...我嘗試了..不對...我改口了."我婆婆不在了..."

婆婆,你生前,煒榮沒為你做過甚麼.謝謝你以前的愛護與照顧.希望你一路走好..希望你下輩子會更好!婆婆..拜拜..

煒筆止.

煩..真的很煩

2010-02-20T02:29:00.002+08:00

唉..不知道怎麼了.難道成人的世界,就是要這樣?為甚麼不能簡單一些?為甚麼隨便一點會讓人覺得像凱子?為甚麼沒人理會我的感受?為甚麼總是要那麼多問題讓我去想?真的好累..好煩啊!!!!!!

我只是很簡單的一個人.我只是很平凡的一個人.我顧全不了那麼多..

誰?可以來幫忙我,讓我過的簡單一些...
唉...真的很納悶..心里很不快,確無從卸下..

到底要我怎樣你們才甘愿?我也有辦不到的時候,能不能不要給臉色我看?能不能體諒一下我?能不能陪我一起隨便一點?能不能陪我一起豁達一點?

我不是好人,我不想做好人.我寧願我是賤人,公認的賤人.我只想做簡單的人...

煒筆止.

its been awhile

2009-12-24T21:21:00.001+08:00

Its been really quite sometime since i last blog. I had been working at Swan Hill which is a farm very far from the city and the place i used to stay in. I went there to try out the experience to be a fruit picker. In fact, I really did have some great time and i had know many friends that are so awesome!~ i will be going to sydney tomorrow. I'm not sure when i will be back but when i am back to Melbourne, it will just be another few days before i go back to Malaysia. Until then folks! I will be uploading my photos and the news and info about me working in the farm. Please stay tune and take good care of yourselves! I miss you all so much!

Adam.

讓感情變得簡單

2009-10-18T21:07:00.003+08:00

那天,乘巴士應約.一路上也沒甚麼大不了.反倒是坐在右側和後方的乘客不停地吱吱喳喳,還有點煩人.窗外的風景,重複飛逝不下百次,因為我經常都會經過那條公路,去上課,去打工.

在要到目的地前,卻被上巴士的一對小孩吸引了我的注意.他們應該是兄妹吧.胖哥哥牽著妹妹擠入擁擠的乘客中.在哥哥為被牽在後面的妹妹盡力開路時卻被一位女士干擾了.那位女士拉著妹妹的手,儘量騰出坐著的位置,讓妹妹也坐下.妹妹得到這樣熱心的待遇,對著哥哥會心的一笑.當時的笑容很甜美,那個小妹妹也張的十分可愛.雖然我看不見哥哥的表情,可是妹妹的笑容,讓我感覺到他們兄妹間的感情羈絆很深.那個笑容好像在跟哥哥分享自己的喜悅..

忽然有些感觸.回想起胖哥哥為妹妹開路的表情,妹妹對哥哥微笑的模樣,好想有點感動.或許,我太誇張了,可是,當時映入眼簾的一幕幕,很簡單卻觸動我的心.心裡因而浮生一種想法..其實,感情根本就是很簡單,很直接的感覺.不需要修飾,不需要掩飾.矛盾的是,自尊和面子,常常為這種感覺蒙上隔牆..

很多人,或許不善於表達,或許過份擔心對方的反應,因此不能將自己的感覺充分表達出來.單純的小兄妹,不懂得把感情修飾之下,是多麼地容易被感受到.有時候,一些人為了不必要的原因,有意無意地將感覺修飾了,就好像長了刺的玫瑰.一不小心,會紮傷欣賞它的人...

讓感情變得簡單才是真諦吧..希望自己也做得到.

煒筆止.

讀書的天空下

2009-10-11T16:11:00.002+08:00

感覺不錯~

煒筆止.

睡不著..

2009-09-25T22:34:00.003+08:00

唉..睡不著..怎麼辦? 沒人上網..無聊鬱悶..讀了整天書,腦也累了.甚麼都不想做..也沒地方可去..哀哉哀哉~~睡吧!

煒筆止.

我的美人~~~

2009-09-21T23:19:00.003+08:00

好飽!好飽!!

煒筆止.

One Fabulous Hospitality

2009-09-20T18:31:00.012+08:00

Today is a tremendous day! We visited Cecilia and Sam, who are my relatives related through my sister-in-law. They are her aunt and uncle who have settled down in Australia for close to 20 years. I felt so lucky to have called them, sending my regards as it was quite a while since our last dinner spent by Cecilia and Sam to my cousin and I. I was chatting with my parent and eventually we talked about Cecilia and Sam and reminded me about calling them after some time. So, I called and they invited us to pay them a visit, to their house on a weekend. We arranged the visit to be today and the funny thing was, we actually were invited to drop by for a dinner but when Sam was asking us what will be the time we going out from our place, he was saying that it will be very late if we were to go around 4pm. On that moment, I was surprise as it will take us a while, probably 1 and a half hour to get to their place but just to have dinner and shouldn't 4pm be just the right time? Instead, Sam asked us to go around 12pm noon. Hahaha..anyway, we bought 2 bottles of red wine to carry with us as some gift suggested by my cousin and off we went.

We reached there at 1:40pm and Sam was already there waiting for us. He drove us from the station back to his house and Cecilia was already at the doorway waiting to welcome us. They have this beautiful front yard, planted with different flowers and plants, tidy and neatly maintained. I guess they sort of blend into the local culture that many people around here have their own front yards nicely decorated with plants and trees. Their house is not really a big one with spacious walkway, splendid living and dining area, big rooms or toilets. This is what comes into my mind when I was there. A house, or rather to say, a home is not a matter of big and spacious. Many people, probably chinese or modern age people, used to think that a big house is equals to a beautiful house. Seeing this house of theirs, beautiful front yard with lively plants and flowers, moderate spacious but warmly decorated house, nice sofa seating, simple wooden furnishing, and with a back yard that is planted with fruit trees, having a cage with 3 hens and a few birds nesting inside means everything a family would never ask for more. I mean, what it brings to you for having a big house, lavishly renovated and furnished? What do you want to do with that house? You don't have this front yard that give you an impression of livelihood, members in the house are sitting far apart because of the great spacing area, you have to walk double or triple distance away to get yourself even just a drink at your house, you don't have a backyard to do some leisure activities..you are just so urbanized..You might say that I am not agreeing with big house because I don't have the capability to get a big house, but its totally up to you how you want to put your own words. I guess, it is just not necessary to own a big house but a warm home is more meaningful.

Anyway, back to my story of the day. Cecilia and Sam welcomed us into the house and immediately, Cecilia led us to the dining area and our lunch was prepared. We had fried meehoon with "lobak". Hahahaha..a great taste of homemade dishes! Very nice indeed. I had so much and was very full until when I drank the coffee, I can feel my belt supporting my bloated belly. hahaha..but Cecilia asked us to finish all the food because those were meant for both of us! Not my fault but I guess because of the homemade taste, I can barely control myself. :p

After the meal, we set off to visit some places. Sam drove us along to show us many different places. We passed by wineries, farms, towns and the best of all, sea ports and beaches! Sam took us to a hot spot where we can see pelicans. The big sea birds with huge beaks and the bottom beak can hold large amount of fillings. If you watched Finding Nemo, pelican is the bird that brought Marlin to see Nemo at the dentist clinic. Then we went to several other ports and the sceneries were so~~~ beautiful..I just can't stop myself getting excited when I see sea. It was slightly early during that visit, else we might be able to see the sunset. It was about 4pm. I tried taking a few photos and unfortunately, I did not bring my camera along. So, those photos were shot with my handphone. Luckily they are not that bad.

We were back to the house at 5pm and Cecilia said she will be cooking the rice and heating up the dinner dish, curry chicken, for us. Hahahaha..they were so generous and thoughtful to guests. I was even more delighted as while we were watching tv and Cecilia was preparing the dish, she walked to us at a moment with 2 eggs in her hand and she happily said to us that she just got those fresh eggs from her hens and she will be frying rice for us as our lunch box for tomorrow!! We were so surprised and impressed! Imagine that, how could we had expected for such warm offer? They are really awesome~~

We had curry chicken, charsiew and mixed vegetables for our dinner. I had a lot again..hahaha..and after the dinner, we had another cup of coffee. Sweet~~ After everything, Sam drove us back to our place. I don't know who to describe but their hospitality was so warm and generous. I really can't have imagined that. I really thank them a lot for being so kind. Maybe I should find someway to repay them as a gratitude some day...

Alright, photo sharing time..

Our dessert prepared by Cecilia, fruit jelly with ice cream topping..

The bird cage at Cecilia and Sam's backyard..

Hahaha..background lighting too strong..
Cecilia between Sam(s)..haha..the younger is my cousin, also called Sam
Sea view..if you zoom in, you might spot the shade of the city buildings at the far end..
People fishing on their yachts..
Far view towards the port..
These boxes...worth over AUD30k...they are just like the size of a toilet..but because by seasides..it cost plenty of cash..
Me in front of the "toilet"
Sam in front of the "toilet"..

Couples of snaps from the beach..
Same beach..
There are so many yachts at the port..quite common to see cars dragging their boats and yachts on roads too..

Sea gulls waiting for people to feed them..
These are the pelicans..

That's all~

Adam.

That's me~

2009-09-14T18:59:00.004+08:00

Got this personality test from email. I guess that's me~

Adam.

又一季節

2009-09-12T19:06:00.013+08:00

今天是一個不同的日子,因為是我體驗第三種季節的日子了..秋去冬至,冬盡春臨,籠罩大地的,是春天的溫暖了~~

起初, 對今天覺得滿沒趣.事情是這樣,昨天眉內飢餓致電給我.又求又哀地..其實我很不喜歡人家哀求我.我不喜歡這種感覺.好像很奇怪.為甚麼要低聲下氣?也不是生死關頭,為甚麼要這樣求我?最重要的是,我不太會拒絕人..死穴...唉..結果,死死下去幫他最後一次的忙...說回今天一早.....

最近,天氣轉變.6時許,天已經相當明亮,猶如8點左右.所以最近6時許我都會醒來一會兒.不過因為想讓自己稍微休息,我都不甘願起床,掉頭再睡,直至9時許,才起身.今天依如此.起身後,因為11點才要出門搭車, 所以有很多時間準備.吃了個早餐,刷牙洗澡.梳洗完畢,上網消遣.出門時,覺得..今天雖然風大依舊,可是,不同的是溫暖撲面..好舒服哦~

暖風不斷迎面地吹來,走起路來精神爽朗,有飄飄然的感覺..哈哈哈..太誇了..不過真的有說不出的舒服.一路上看見碧綠園野,花枝招展地..不久前,枯裂的樹木,先下苗秧探出,綠葉襯托..不知覺地也讓人精神為之一振.氣氛洋溢,哈哈哈..現在真正體會到甚麼叫'春風滿面'!!

一路上,看見許多形形色色的花朵,雖然都是小花,卻隱藏不了它們奪目的吸引力.鮮豔煞人,忍不住要為它們照下來,讓大家分享分享..呵呵呵呵..以下也夾著一些附近的照片,大家不彷看看..

火車鐵軌的路旁..
一些草原上的花朵..

路邊野花..別亂採~
形形色色..對吧?
雖小,卻是一種多層次的美感
還有~
再來~~
很喜歡這個~
覺得最好看的,有點像假花.. XD
新生命迎新春~

別人家園,不能拍,只拍露出來的..河邊的野花..
校園裡的風景..

春天...來囉~~

煒筆止.

苦海~苦海~

2009-09-11T09:59:00.004+08:00

終於!全部作業完成!!哈哈..也非然,仍然眷有一個最大陣容的作業.要寫上最少6000字分析報告.嗯..可是應該不成大問題.有了經驗,配合學到的,應該應付有餘.兼職已經正式停工,時間上應該比較好安排.也要開始準備考試了.哈哈..只要考完試,從游故鄉,指日可待.哇哈哈哈..回去時,就是我大開殺戒的時候!無論如何,一定要找人陪我,從東到西,由南至北,通殺!!

兼職那邊,那個'眉內飢餓'(MANAGER)很過分..我明白他的難處,可是最大的問題,處於他本人.他壓根兒不知道,可能他不覺得,自己有問題.他處理不妥當之餘,還理所當然地認為是別人有負於他.可笑,可笑.一個成年人,經常把社會經驗掛在口邊,自認說得有文有路的眉內飢餓,其實也不過如是..眉內飢餓對屬下,會責罵教訓,本屬平常.但是,出言不逊,甚至爆粗,更讓人不敢恭維.

撇開不說他安排人手不當,他並沒有讓人敬而順之的態度.每每出現問題,他就爆粗.心情好時,就甚麼都沒問題.有時,甚至沒問題,他也挑骨頭地,總而言之,要找出氣袋.這樣的舉止行為,怎樣讓人臣服?怎樣留的住人手?怎樣提高大家的士氣?怎樣提高大家的服務質數?明眼人一瞧,就知道裡面的員工,可能1,2個吧,其餘的都是怕他或看錢的份上.有誰是死心塌地尊敬或真心為他効勞?這麼簡單的道理,如果都不能看透,那甚麼社會經驗,甚麼大小道理,就算說得對,也沒有說服力了..

再說,可能眉內飢餓不能隨意提高員工工資,但不太可能,但是若你有心要留住你的員工,可是你沒讓人感覺到絲毫的誠意.我們只是暫工.目的通常只有一個,就是人工.總不可能,讀了一大堆的書,然後跑去做侍應.只是一味兒地說要我們留下來幫忙,但是你麻幫幫忙.不過說實話,就算給我$15我也不會再做.吃力不討好,工作體驗我也夠了,加上眉內飢餓讓人止步的態度..算了吧~

哈哈哈..怎樣都好,認識到一班不錯的同事,也不錯.再說,也感謝他當初給了我這個機會.體驗,學習..和賺取一點生活費,零錢.所以,還是謝謝.也讓我學懂了,做眉內飢餓的難處,和不應該有的態度和處理方式.希望有一天他能看到這一面.他會更成功..

差點忘了說為甚麼我會說他過份.從旁人口中得知,他竟然說教我別回去,回去有甚麼好,作工吧!然後,另一個也將要離職的,理由是要去唸書,他竟然說,唸甚麼書啦,他都不是唸書的人,幫他作工更好!這樣讓人更加看清楚他的自私..可嘆~

祝他好運..或許他有的是工作經驗,而不是社會經驗.或許他有的是自認有理,而不是做人處世的道理.我跟他算不上朋友,所以不知道私低下的為人.對此,無可置論.

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分手

2009-08-28T14:43:00.002+08:00

女: 明..我..

男: 你知道嗎?昨天,我吃飯時,不小心咬到嘴唇..疼死了..

女: 你聽我說..

男: 你看, 就是這裡..很疼..

女: 明..不要這樣..

男: 明天我沒事干,我們去拍拖,好嗎? 妳一直說你想去遊樂園, 我們明天去玩個痛快!

女: ....我們..分手吧...

男: 我們可以拍照,玩小遊戲...

女: 你讓我走吧...

男: ....贏..獎..........

時間,停了下來..一個低頭不語,另一方仰望天空..此時, 彼此反應已經決定個自異別的方向..

寂靜良久..

男孩,默默轉身,提起散漫的腳步..女孩警覺抬起了頭,想說的話,到了嘴邊,卻不接續..

眼望背影,突覺罪感..震聲道,''明...''

男子止步.緩緩道來,''我沒束縛你..從來沒有...''

女: 是你對我的好..讓我喘不過氣..我不值得..

男: ...是嗎....?

女: 我希望你明白..我..沒感覺了...可是,你對我那麼好..我不想傷害你..

男: ...................

男: ...我明白..(轉回頭,帶著微笑). 我們分手吧!其實,我也想說..可是也怕對你打擊太大..這下好了.對你好,是因為責任.對不起..我應該早說,讓大家早些得到解脫的.

女孩茫然地睜著..片刻後, 女孩也笑了.

女: 那,我們還是朋友?

男: 這還用說?!

女: 嗯!好啦,我要走了..拜拜!

男: 嗯,小心啊. 再見!

揮別,女孩掉頭快步地走了,低著頭輕輕地..為男孩掉最後一次的眼淚,感謝的眼淚.."謝謝你..明.."

女孩清楚明白,就連在最後的一刻,男孩依然為愛著女孩撒了一個善謊.快步離開因為不想讓男孩強忍眼淚..也不想看見男孩流淚..

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Part time photo

2009-08-24T21:21:00.003+08:00

me and manager. How come he looks so small beside me..haha..

me cooking~ wanna get a bite?! :p

me and michael (behind), Jen Jeh and Ngau Gor(front)

Cheers!

錯的殘忍

2009-08-11T09:40:00.003+08:00

自辯?理虧,說不得.

那個角度?也沒差..反正,就錯了.

一開始,或許錯了.
說了,錯了.
再問,更錯.

是一種好心作壞事?還是一種殘忍的決定?

很複雜吧?一些事情,在不清楚,也不明白之下,我們可能做錯了..但是,歸根究底,到底是怎麼一回事?該從何說起?該怎樣去重整?徒然吧了..

該面對的,始終得面對.既然已經決定..是對或錯,現在無法辨認..讓時間去決定吧..

感嘆..一向理智的我怎麼了?但我能怎樣?我沒得怎樣..希望不是錯的..

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梅花?很美

2009-08-10T22:11:00.003+08:00

回家路上看到的..覺得很美.所以拍下來了..

這種冷天氣,大多的樹木都被秋風刮得面目全非.這棵書卻為這季節添上少許的錦花..

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命運

2009-08-06T23:43:00.002+08:00

妳相信命運嗎?

我..不知道.有時候,巧合是很恐怖的.
怎麼說呢?當偶然的發生,我們視為巧合.但是,一連串的巧合..或許就不再是種"巧合"了..

每天的行程,都走上大大小小的十字路口.轉左還是轉右?沒差..
沒有一定的規律下,美麗的巧合湊成.交叉點,讓人走入彼此的空間.留下種種腳印,痕跡..

碰巧走向同樣的前路,相伴的時光甚多.一路上,崎嶇轉折,抑惑美景雅事偏偏,或許彼此分享的會更多.
也有縱然一同前進,可是大家都過於注意步伐,竟然沒發現近在身邊的同伴.可惜之矣..

然而,命運有時弄人.雖然一路同行,可是步伐不一.漸漸由同行,變成了前者與後者.
前者在探討的路上,不經意地為後者留下了更為滄夷之道..也可能,因為前者擋遮了後者,種下了無心的禍根..

其實,是命運的作弄,還是一種為解釋不到的巧合所找出來推卸責任的藉口?
誰又能解釋清楚?

希望非己所思.奉上祝福..

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暫別了

2009-07-31T22:36:00.000+08:00

親愛的讀者,暫別.珍重.

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渺小和偉大

2009-07-28T20:55:00.003+08:00

很矛盾的定義.或許是種主觀的看法,可是渺小難道就代表不重要?而後者才有價值?螻蟻尚且偷生..不是沒道理的.大家都能啷啷上口的簡單道理,到底溫存的意義有多明瞭?

我有一個很要好的朋友.大家很熟悉對方的為人,覺得和彼此都很合得來.逐漸,從朋友,大家變成了死黨.從死黨,成了知己.基本上,很多東西,不用多說都大至能知道對方的意思.既然大家都熟落了,彼此經常前往對方的家作樂.真的很開心.有一次,我不經意的在他房的地上,看見一塊碎玻璃.隨手撿起,把它扔出了窗外....

隨後,一連幾日..我都沒接到這位朋友的聯繫.一向來都會主動連絡我的他,忽然好像蒸發了一般.沒多在意,我也沒主動連絡上他.直到有一天,我不經意的撥電到他家里,才得知我的朋友得了重病.已經奄奄一息了..我嚇了一跳,急忙去看看他.他憔悴得輪廓,蒼白的臉孔,已經不是我認識的他.看見他這樣,真的把我給嚇壞了.他雙親在他身邊,父親默默無言..只是靜靜的看著自己的兒子.母親則泣不成聲...

我問了他雙親,究竟怎麼了.原來..有一次,我的朋友在房里打破玻璃杯.之後,他的愛犬在不久後,竟然因吞噬到玻璃塊,傷及咽喉和胃,在來不及診斷前就死了..我朋友誤以為自己打破玻璃,不知怎麼地讓碎片掉出了窗外,誤打誤撞跌進了愛犬的狗食里,因而闖出禍端來.雖然有點誇張,可是朋友的卻為了這件事,茶飯不思..染上了虛脫症.無論父母怎麼勸說責罵..他都無法原諒自己..

我憶起了我曾將玻璃碎片扔出窗外,而狗屋正正就在停車處,也就是窗外.我實在無地自容.眼見朋友飽受心理和生理的煎熬..我說出了真相..朋友起初以為我是為了他而說謊..可是我堅持和講出了整個真相後..他相信了我..事候,他逐漸康復..可是,我們不再是朋友.就連他父母,也不原諒我..曾經讓他們的兒子走進鬼門關.當然,我也做不到若無其事的.唉...

誰會懂得,事情會有這麼陰差陽錯?誰會猜到朋友會固執成這樣?誰會料到,一塊指頭般大小的碎玻璃有這麼大的殺傷力?
渺小嗎?誰能說得準.對我來說,渺小的碎玻璃,卻徹底的代表我跟朋友那麼要好的關係的破裂..真諷刺..

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原地踏步

2009-07-24T18:09:00.002+08:00

最近,總覺得自己好像很不長進.時間安排總是不妥當.好像也浪費了很多時間.奇怪了..我不應該是這樣的.有一種很糟糕的感覺.看見身邊的人,幾乎都在不斷往前面的路,適應著且小心的前進.而我,好像有點在原地踏步的感覺.我好像還在眷戀著一些過去,在回顧甚至不知道時間的流逝一樣.渾渾噩噩地過著每一天.再這樣下去,我會比以前更失敗.

好了,從今天起,要從新振作.我要再加把衝勁.

今天,心情雖然因自己的呆呆而覺得有點不安,可是,很開心得知朋友們的日子都過得還不錯.心情也稍微好些.希望他們每一天都過得好好,能多一點快樂,少一點煩惱.那就很好了..

原地踏步的我,要啟程了.

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繁忙不堪

2009-07-23T13:56:00.002+08:00

涌潮般的工作量开始填满每日．逐渐开始失去自由，空間．學習固然好，可是煉獄般的汹涌，有如每一秒都在跟時間比拚。學習是要以这种模式进行的嗎？奇怪了．．上个學期學的東西，虽然都还在脑海中，可是，拼命的灌输，短時間的消化，能融入思维里的，究竟有幾多？没办法，人，特别是到了我这个年紀的，或许不該浪费太多時間，全职的讀書。所以当选择了做个全职的念書時，就该在这种情况下进行。納悶．．

这幾天，都呆在學校的圖書館。做资料收索，做功课，甚至讀書。很不像我呐。。一贯的我，喜欢走动，躺着，趴着，坐着。。就無定刻地改变姿势讀書。现在，只能挺直腰板，正正经经坐着。。很不習慣，也很不是滋味。更納悶。。

心情不怎么好。。想买电脑，可是很难腾出多餘的钱去買。在每多選擇的情況下，唯有维持现状。不習慣也得習慣。改变不能接受的，接受不能改变的。说到底，也不是真得很为难的事。男人大丈夫，能屈能伸嘛。。呵呵呵呵~自个儿傻笑，还好没别人看到。。：ｐ

昨日，从新騎车上課。好累啊！！搁下太久了。之前考试，放假都没騎车上課了。昨天騎時，到了學校，脚都有点发抖了。哈哈哈哈。。太恐怖了。不过在这样下去，可能还会再瘦多一点。大概也不错吧！那天做工，有第三次的＂艳遇＂。这次是个洋妞。起初不怎么。看见她時，见她友善地笑，礼貌的报以一笑。在她与友人一起用餐的期間，发现她一直望着我，眼神对望時，她总会再笑一笑。有点妖媚的感觉。可是也没多放在心上。直到她离开時，其实没注意到，因为我再忙着做東西，可是当她经过我身旁時，她摸我手臂，再跟我说再見。我呆了幾秒。。才回说晚安。可能也是我说得誇張了，或许只是一种礼貌或热情地表示？然而，做了幾个月，热情的都只会有多聊幾句，或称赞服务好的話之类的。这类的热情，还没遇过。怎样都好，她的确长得不错，可惜是上妆的女性。不是我杯茶。。呵呵呵呵。。我知道，我知道～～爱现了。。　：ｐ

好了，不說了，要继续灌脑了。。　ＸＤ

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New Semester

2009-07-21T18:32:00.003+08:00

A new semester has started. Now has just entered into the second week. This semester will gonna be a tough one. All the lecturers in this semester have been emphasizing on this issue and make sure the idea is deeply embedded into our minds. Sigh..we have no mid sem break nor the study week before the exams. Everything stays close to one another and comes immediately after one another. I am dead meat!

There are a total of 6 assignments, including one thesis paper that requires 7000 words. But in exchange, there will be only 3 papers to sit for the exams. God knows which is better, exam or thesis paper. Anyway, its a good experience for me and luckily it is also the subject that I have great interest in, Human Resource management. The lecturer is a japanese lady and quite beautiful, hmm~ sweet~~ kekeke..that brings me to better attention in the class too.. ^o^

The bad thing is having my laptop stolen, I will have great trouble in doing my assignments. Luckily, there is a friend who is generous enough to lend me his laptop though it is not totally a spare one but he is fine with that. Until then, I shall share a laptop with my cousin and go to Uni to use the pcs in the library. Sigh...too bad I do not have extra money to get myself a new laptop or computer. There are so much to consider and I can't just make carefree decision. Will see how things work out and hopefully wont be too bad.

Phew~ tough tough..I did not do very well in last semester. I got 2 Distinctions and 2 Credits. I am hoping i could do better this semester but given with this situation and this compact course, I wonder whether I could really achieve that. Anyway, I shall do my best and worse comes to worst, I will need to quit my part time job and concentrate to my studies. Pray pray...wish me luck~

Adam.

我的第一次...#5

2009-07-13T20:53:00.004+08:00

我的屋子進賊...

I lost my laptop and some cash..

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有花堪折直需折,莫待花落空折枝

2009-07-04T21:08:00.003+08:00

有些事情需要抓緊時機.莫要等到後悔莫及..

"ITS TOO LATE!"

其實,這句話主要是講桃花姻緣.所謂,"蘇州過後無艇搭".當你發現有一大好的姻緣在面前的時候,千萬要記得,慎重考慮..如果錯過了,可能會是一大悔恨.

回顧過去總會憶起許多擦身而過的機會,當然,說到這裡不再是指姻緣.擦身而過的是否真的是一個機會,已經無從談及了.然而心里有時會覺得很可惜.可興的是這些累計下來的踏腳石,逐漸讓自己站在更高的觀望點.假以時日,若有所盼,希望自己能目然更廖闊的視野,讓流逝的變得更少.

並不是抓住所有的一切,就是好.除了緣分,昨天的失去,或許會帶來今天的偶遇,甚至明天的可能.冥冥中是否有所安排,不得而知.人,也不是完美的.沒有人能去判斷你的失去是否可惜,因為他的價值觀並不重要.昨日之日不可留,過去式只是一種很好的提醒..所以,再一次,

有花堪折直需折,莫待花落空折枝

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Photos

2009-06-29T21:19:00.003+08:00

Like promise, I upload some photos I taken over here...not all of coz..hahaha..enjoy~

my first cup of cappuccino in Melbourne.

Being naughty and drew a smiley under the cup. I like the cup design and kept the cup. Nyek nyek nyek..

wahahaha...my curry pot..

my soy sauce chicken

A big cabbage...larger than 30cm in diameter.. @..@

The unit I rent and stay currently..

Other scenes that I shot with my handphone camera when I happened to come across and find them beautiful..

填充

2009-06-21T22:32:00.002+08:00

如果有一天,你發現你的付出,付諸流水..別不開心,因為你更了解了付出的價值..

那天,有感而發,隨意想想而在msn留下的個人標題.有個朋友很認同,也拿了作他的個人標題.不知道為甚麼,我覺得我是一個多愁善感的人.思想很複雜,思緒也很刁鑽.自小便如是.很奇怪,我不懂是甚麼導致我成長成這個樣子.但是,我不喜歡這樣的我.我覺得太複雜了.我不喜歡這種思想.可是,改變不了..

以前,某個程度上我算的上是個自閉兒.雖然周邊的人,有人稱我為開心果.我總是傻裡傻氣地.愛鬧愛搞笑,逗身邊的人開心.可是,很多時候,不知怎麼了,會突然整個人消沉了下來.變得不開心.可能是人們說的情緒化吧.抑或是年少,愛耍帥.在不清楚也不知覺中,我已經過了那段時光了.真是可笑..回憶以往,真的有很多不堪回想的傻勁.

這樣的我,現在不會了.我很久沒真正的發脾氣了.多久?我不記得了..有時候,我會覺得很累.好像一切逆來順受.真正的我,被囚禁在深處.內心的吶喊,被層層的隔膜完全掩蓋過去了.我常跟人說,我不是好人.我真的不是.我也有我任性的一面.我也有我自私的一面.我也一樣有脾氣,有限的忍耐,和孩子氣的時候.可是,這些都不被發表出來.只因我想做我最大努力,不讓別人難過.儘量做得完善點,哪怕一點委屈.吞也就吞掉了..也或許,別人也有在包容我而我不自知.

我跟女朋友講過一個我很喜歡的故事;釘子與籬笆的故事.有個孩子,每天從學校回家,總會跟爸爸投訴今天誰誰對他不好,跟誰吵了架,昨天教訓了誰的不是.爸爸對孩子說,別不開心了,每當跟誰吵了架,就在花園籬笆上,釘一根釘子吧.從此,孩子就開始釘釘子.爸爸又說,當你和他合好了,就把那根釘子取掉.釘釘子,拔釘子.漸漸孩子稍微長大了.釘子,越來越少了.一天爸爸把孩子叫到籬笆前,指了指籬笆問到,"釘子呢?怎麼都沒了?" "我和他們都合好啦!"孩子回說.爸爸又問,"那你覺得籬笆有釘子好看,還是沒釘子好看?" 孩子頓了頓,"沒釘子..好看."爸爸微笑道,"孩子,你摸摸籬笆,覺得怎樣?" 孩子摸了籬笆,凹凹凸凸的洞,很不舒服.孩子似乎明白些甚麼,爸爸就說到,"當你和朋友吵架,其實就好像在他們心裡釘了一根釘子一樣.縱然,釘子之後去掉了,但是,難免會留下傷痕.孩子,你明白嗎?"

所以,很多事情不是程一時而後快.很多東西,挽回不了的.大家都明白的一句,珍惜眼前,可是又有多少人,真正珍惜呢?有多少人,真正去體諒,去珍惜別人對他們的付出,包容與容忍呢?就算只是朋友,可能對你來說,他是普通中的普通的朋友,但是也該好好去待人...

不知怎麼的,很累..不寫了..

煒筆止.

真霉

2009-06-15T17:20:00.003+08:00

昨天,得去做兼職.雖然仍在測試期間,但是店長沒辦法讓我多拿假.唉~就這樣少了2天的複習時間.作工倒還好,不甚忙,貼事也還不錯;可是得不償失.一直作到中午,都還好.沒甚麼事情,也沒甚麼特別.我依然好好幹活.可是,到了4點許..我得上二樓搬貨.不是甚麼重的東西,但是滿多,所以得放進箱子裡.下樓時,不知道廚房的幫手剛好抹地.一個不慎,滑了一交.滑倒是小事,可是不幸的是,剛好下了樓梯,一滑倒時,尾椎撞上了梯級.好痛!

自知沒傷及筋骨,可是免不了瘀青.摸摸尾椎時,有點腫了.真霉~

到了6時許,店長進來了.本想和他商量,說來著的星期三,要請假讀書.但是,也被拒絕了.真後悔到回去做.雖然能賺到錢,但是我不想影響學業.一天半天的確實還好,可是這樣是3天了.心情不是很好.我想,我更加會要換工作了.我想,雖說這間店的確有它的好.店長待我們還不薄.可是,人工的確微薄了點.可能比起一些地方,這裡算得上過得去.但是,這裡何嘗不比其他地方來得微薄呢?反正我們打工的,主要原因還是在賺錢.更何況只是兼職.怎麼都好,考完試,會再找找看,有沒有更好的機會.

煒筆止.

痛痛.. (>"<)‵

思想複雜?抑惑感情?

2009-06-12T21:41:00.002+08:00

剛剛瀏覽某人的部落.深感無奈..心中的疑惑不減反增.人在感情世界中,當遇上自己也覺得理虧的時候,總會給自己尋找最為妥當的藉口,以掩遮自己不可理諭的無恥行為.甚麼公不公平,甚麼感情不該縛束於責任的絆羈的都是廢話!

其實..甚麼公不公平根本不輪到在傷害他人的你來斷定.對!感情世界裡,很多矛盾,很多灰色地帶,很多旁人無法解釋的對與錯.可是,如果你無法堅守你的承諾,打從一開始,你根本沒資格要跟人許下諾言,更沒有任何理由去追求甚至要求別人和你歇手共渡!!!別說一年半載,哪怕一天你也不應該連累他人..你可知道,你的不負責人,你的自私,任性可以為人帶來多大的傷害嗎?!你別說你知道!你不會知道!你根本無法想像得到!!!

難道要好好愛一個人會是這麼難得一件事嗎?人非草木..感情是最好的安全保障,卻也是最可怕的武器.其實,在這個社會裡,對感情看得甚輕的人,大有人在.如果你沒信心要奉獻,那你根本不應該與以終身相許的人開始任何感情啊..唉..算了..反正你就是不會明白這種道理的人才會做出這麼賤的決定.多說無益.跟你廢話,反而浪費我的時間,貶低我的人格.

希望有心人,能找到自己的幸福.珍惜自己的人..

真的好無奈..為甚麼我身邊的人,我看重的人...唉..

煒筆止.

稍息片刻

2009-06-12T17:43:00.002+08:00

呼~完成了75%的考試.心情頓然輕鬆了許多.今天的考題,大部分在掌控中.可喜,可喜.默默許願,希望成績能如想像一般.在此,我也想謝謝祝福我和提我加油的大家.來著還有一科.還得再加把勁,做最後衝刺.

昨晚真糟糕,失眠了.今天因要起得比平日早,所以刻意早寢.不知哪兒來的精神,就是無法入眠.嘗試放鬆,保持睡姿..不成.左翻右覆地,就是得不到周公的請函;被忍心地拒於門外徘徊.心倒是不著急,索性當閉目養神.乖乖躺著.總之讓腦袋休息.雖然,零零碎碎的畫面始終在腦海閃爍,但也沒多加理會.一直輾轉到過了1時許,(為身麼知道?因為睡不著,開著戲.沒在看,就任他播,演完沒聲了就大概過了2小時.因為是蠟筆小新,日語的,不明白比明白多,也不太用心聽.),不知覺中,已經與周公下起棋來了.這個對手,一般來說因為我頭腦不行,總得對壘上數時辰.可是在沉心應戰時,卻被莫名的音樂喚醒.原來是表弟來電 =..=|||
當時,起身走動了一會兒.睡意也去了.再一次從演歷史.這次,周公真的惱了.唉~一直到5時左右,方肯與我繼續對壘.顯然,他很記仇.不一小時,就把我將軍出局. t(>.< t)

哈哈哈..開玩笑啦.是時候起床了.因為考試,不想冒險.所以提前一小時去大學,以防突發事件.天氣轉涼,要入冬了.冷到~~.這種感覺真的很不是滋味,至少不是我的天氣.到處都冷冰冰,就連被窩裡,也是冰冰涼涼地.沒辦法..一個大男人,往自己心窩裡卷縮,一跳一拐地去梳洗後,用過早餐就出門了.外面,天空未明.但是,旭陽卻已突顯感染力了.天空裡薄散的雲層,被帶上了微微的粉紅.雖然微薄,但也相當紅艷.心裡添上少許溫暖.不錯不錯.. (~.~)

一路去大學,思緒圍繞著考題.不知道難不難應付.對accounting沒多大的信心.也曾對自己說,不要總覺得自己只要是accounting就不行.認真想想,的確有不容易應付的地方,但是有甚麼新的科目沒有這類的挑戰呢?為甚麼就一定是accounting就不行呢?所以,自己不再那麼想了.只要認真面對,一樣行!沒了這個心理障礙,的確自然許多.去到學校,依然很冷.. orz

還有1個小時,就再稍作溫習.進到考場,也不緊張.還慢條斯理地翻閱問題.哈哈哈..結果險些鬧個時間不濟. (^o^) 哈哈哈..還好因為考場安排上除了小問題,考試時間延長了30分鐘.雖然也不真的說不夠時間,但也算遇上東風吧.呵呵呵呵..

回到家,卸下了背包與心情,就讓自己稍微休息 ~(^o^)~ .不再動課本.有一個星期時間準備最後一張考試,雖然是蛮難的一科,但今晚再繼續讀吧.想小睡片刻,真想不到還真名副其實的片刻.首先,大概15分鐘.之後,乍醒了.不久,再挑戰一次.也是不足30分鐘就輸了.哈哈哈..真的是摸不著頭腦.豬豬們都往那兒去了?唉~算了吧..晚上早點睡吧.

嗯..差不多時間要開工了.就寫到這裡吧.加油!!

煒筆止.

意外驚喜!!

2009-06-10T14:37:00.002+08:00

今天考第二張紙.老實說,因為昨天的表現也平平,讓我真的好沮喪.不知道自己所寫的,會不會被接納.考試方式很不一樣.你就好像一位經理,當看了業績報告,你得作出選擇,決定公司的方向.短短三個小時以內,你得看完整個業績報告,作出全面分析,對於問題作出了解與分析,再做出決定.然後,要寫出來你的分析,決定,和原因.三個小時,用來寫,要讀且分析.雖然不一定要長篇大論,但內容要充足,要詳細,要有重點.其實,最困難是在寫.寫字稍微慢點都成問題.在考場里,能思考分析的時間,的卻不多.了解了,想到甚麼就是甚麼了.當然少不了成理也成立.那三個小時,過的真的很快.雖然我有寫完,但分析時間不多,明白自己沒寫得多好.真可惜..

可是今天的考試,說穿了,真的蛮容易.或許..或許..有可能能得到甲等.如果真能拿到,那真的是太好了!不過,也不敢抱著太大希望.總之,努力了,也考過了,但願不會不過關要從來就好.然而,今天更讓我興奮的是,我的MARKETING assignment的成績.先看到教師的評語,"WELL DONE!"心裡開始有一群大象,咚喲咚喲,地撞來撞去.一看!哇,爽!!

19.5/25 耶!!差少許就是Excellent了!

哈哈哈..螢幕前的你,或許覺得平平.可是,如果你知道這個教師的水準,你就知道,這個分數是不容易的哦.之前,有人拿過22分.可是他們偷雞.先給老師瞧瞧,在更改,才有.當我看到這個分數後,真的是很感動叻~從新燃燒鬥志!!還有兩張!加油!!

煒筆止.

考試

2009-06-08T19:11:00.002+08:00

久違的考試,明日即是.忐忑難免,但願不會徹夜難眠.說起來,心低或多或少有所擔心,卻也蛮為平靜.可能近日來,書讀多了,腦也反覆思量,腦袋里不斷被注如不同的知識,觀點,想法,方案,等等的東西.有點麻痺了.對於明天的考試,反而有點靜而待之的感覺.然而我的失策,作業的成績平平.對總分影響甚大.但是要過關,應該問題不大.就希望自己並非真的那麼不濟,至少能比剛過關好些,心裡才不至於那麼自責,愧疚.

唉..老實說,真的蛮失落.可是只能怪自己.說沒努力,怎麼可能?說不明白,也非然.但是卻在那時,顧全不周.其實是一種經驗.當初不曉得甚麼會被考核,甚麼是要點,有了要點該怎麼呈現.這一些的種種,壓根兒沒頭緒.不知道也沒想到需要包含這樣的資料..結果到後來才懂.真是一大敗筆.可惜啊..可惜..

怎樣都好,過去的不能挽救,只能再全力應赴接下來的.除了知識,也希望能有點運氣旁身.第一個學期,就要結束了.嗯..加油吧!

煒筆止.

A day away

2009-06-07T19:55:00.002+08:00

The day after tomorrow will be the day I sit for my first paper. Rather worried though I believe I could have prepared enough. Hopefully it will not turn out to be bad. Actually, this course seems easy, but it has its good reason to be known as tough. Or it could be something quite subjective. Some people are born with the ability to penetrate through things, viewing the unseen, seeing the close things in a distance view and capturing the image of the distanced things clearly. Critical thinking, reminds me of my final year college lecturer. Used to hate him for always hanging the word "critical" by his mouth and forcing us to milk our brain power flat. So, now that I understand the importance of that, I don't know why but probably some sort of embedded dignity disallow me to bow against his credit. Hahahaha..so bad, right?

Anyway, being a critical thinker, could be easy for someone out there, but I need to develop that myself. I could be critical, at times, but i see myself not good enough and really need far more knowledge and experience to get myself to that acceptable stage. Wish me luck if you could, I will need that. Thanks in advance! Haha

Sigh..just recovered from sick. Was unable to concentrate well but luckily still able to complete the revision. Hmm~ after these 2 weeks will finally got a break for 3 weeks. Can actually take sometime and walk around? Or maybe will spend more time working part time. Whatever it may be, I still hope I could faster complete the studies and go back to Malaysia for the short break and seeing all the people, eating all the food and sleeping in my own room. I miss that so much!!

Adam.

On the way home, hit by a car..

2009-05-28T15:37:00.002+08:00

Today i cycled my bike to Uni like usual. I checked the weather forecast and knowing that the afternoon will be sunny, so should be a good day to cycle. However, the weird thing was, i kept having thoughts on accident thinking different kinds of possibilities that could have happened if I were reckless in cycling my bike. So, i kept myself cautious much more than usual. Still, the thoughts just wont get aside. Well, I was safe to Uni. Got on to the lecture and learnt the last topic to cover for the exam and set off back home at 3pm.

On my way back, I was not thinking about the bad things anymore. The bad feelings I had before weren't coming to my mind either. Trust me, though with that, I was still very careful cycling home. Half way back, the sky started drizzling. Rain showered and getting heavier ahead. I had no choice but to stop under a shed and took my umbrella out and continue on my foot. I was pushing my bike under the umbrella. It was still about 6 to 7 km away from my house. I was thinking to myself..this will be a long way to walk.

To my surprise, the sky turned good not long after I walked in the rain. The rain stopped gradually then I proceed cycling to make my way back faster. When I was not far away from house, the incident, or to put it serious, the accident happened. There was this car, the big holden luxury type car waiting to turn into the main road. The was a car coming and before the car passed, this car can't be steering out. So, I cycled across the road since this car wasn't moving. I was right in front of the car, when the car on the main road passed by. This car immediately accelerate once the car went passed. I was wondering how could the driver not see me if he/she had been following the car that just passed by with his/her eyes? That was the mystery. The car moved, and hit me or rather more accurately, the back tire of my bike. I was able to maintain my balance and turned to look at the driver. Believe me, I wasn't being mean nor showing any angry or unpleasant face but just looking what driver was driving that car. It was a lady, middle aged lady and she showed the sorry face and putting her hand up as a sign of apology. I did the same to signal that I was fine with that. Then I continued home. Well, I guessed you might at a moment thought it could be somewhat serious. Actually it was just a very minor collision. The lady was accelerating real slowly. Luckily was a female driver, if it was a youngster or some impatient male driver, could it be worse? Anyway, not to think about the bad since thing had past.

The real bad thing was, my bike lock was nowhere to be found when I got back. I wonder where the hell it dropped. I locked it against the bike body but I dont know how the hell it disappear. Sigh..it cost me $12 to replace another. Probably I will borrow my cousin's since he is not using his bike since he bought it. Luckily we both bought a second hand bike which was quite cheap.

Anyway, readers, please also be careful when you are outside. Sometimes, even if you are careful, there are other elements around that could be reckless. Just do your best to keep yourself safe. Take good care.

Adam.

Quite a while..

2009-05-27T22:50:00.002+08:00

I thought it had been quite a while since i last blogged. Well, to some extent, it wasn't really "quite a while". I still posted something on April and now it is still May. Hahaha..it is not really that long after all. Looking back to the year i started blogging, it was almost 2 years back. Now that is really "quite a while". Cut the crap. I think I shall post some of my updates.

Talking about my studies, I find myself really learning a lot of things through this course. Although it is still my first semester and the final exam is just around the corner, about 2 weeks to go, I already gaining quite a lot knowledge and really find myself being the frog under the well. There are just so many things that are far beyond my imagination. I could never have imagined how a professional field that involve in each business could be that sophisticated and tough. There are just so many things that until you learn, you wont know the nature behind. The underlying concept and tasks that need to be undergo by each personnel in his/her role is so important and could be very tedious and challenging. Now that I am able to put myself into their shoes in a better position, I could imagine and have a, if not clear, brief idea what could need to be done in the jobs. That is really awesome! However, I also learnt that I am being so incapable and that I really need to work through this tough time to grow and become stronger.

The life here is quite boring. Being an international student is not easy, especially when you are being at the situation where the currency of the country is so much higher than your mother country. Working part time while studying is not really tiring. Physically, yes, but mentally what is driving you to feel tired is all the thing that you have to bear to make sure you are minimizing everything to save. It is not a complain but I can really understand that how life could be that casual when you are being at your homeland, doing what you are suppose to be doing and staying with your family. Now that I am here, though not really far away from my home country, I stay at the house all the time besides going to buy groceries, Uni and working. There is no entertainment at all beside watching movie in youtube. I dare not to spend a single penny on going for any entertainment like movie in cinema, hang out in pub (though I don't do that in Malaysia either), going out with friends, taking leisure time in complexes etc. If not necessary, I wont even want to take any public transport just to save money. I ride my bike 2 hours a day back and forth to Uni just to keep my cost low. I buy whichever food that is cheap. Eating almost the same thing everyday. I am spending only $15 per week for the meals. Other than normal meals, I spend only a few dollars, less than 10 a month for confectionaries; giving up my favourite chocolates. Everyday is all about going to Uni, back to house for revision, going part time job and back for rest. Well, people might say this is much more lucky comparing to many other people. I shouldn't even be making statement about this given that my parent supported me so much for the studies. Anyway, take it easy, alright? :p

The thing is, sometimes I am asking myself, "Why am I here?" Lolz...i find it quite hilarious when I find myself suddenly appear in Australia and sticking to the life here for 1 and a half year, at least. Until now, I still hardly believe I had chosen this path and is pursuing it now. Today is my 100th day in Australia. Surprise that I counted on that? Hahaha..i have my way. How are the things back in Malaysia? I miss a lot of things back there. I am being so naive that I thought I could easily handle the life here. I thought I could just come over, study, get a PR and stay here until further decision. If the same question is thrown to me again "Will you just go there and not coming back once you get the PR?" I doubt that I will give the same answer. I got my reason for have chosen to come here, taking the studies as my first stage. However, to have things work out, courage, determination and strong will are so crucial.

What lies ahead, could be an answer to find out. But most importantly, is what I have with me now. Sometimes, I find myself so small, even though I am big in size. A great news for myself is, I have changed quite a bit, physically. Yeah, I am sure I too have some changes in mental.

erm..up to here..i wonder what I intended to write here. I lost my intuition. Or probably I have too many things to write. After all, i have not been writing things for so long. Hahahaha..or probably I just wanted to leave a word or two, showing that I did not forget my blog. Sorry that I have been taking for granted and using busy as my excuse and not updating my blog. For those who interested about my updates, thousand apologies. From time to time, I have been shooting photos on scenes that came into my eyes that I find wonderful. I am no photographer nor some artistic person. I shot those photos based on my own view. I am sure many people will not have the idea why I had taken those photos. Anyway, I really giving my promise here. Mark my words. During my semester break, I will definitely upload some of those photos here.

Until then, hope everyone is fine and being good with their lives. Take good care and always be happy. Goodnitez.

Adam.

What a day..

2009-04-03T21:51:00.002+08:00

sigh..yesterday was really not my bad. Everything, well, should be most of the things were going not in the way I wanted or thought it would be. I was cycling in the rain, getting all wet and yet it was the traveling to Uni but not back to my house. So, I was at the Uni with my wet jeans, shoes and socks. Luckily I always bring an extra shirt to change when I go to Uni because I might sweat for being cycling for an hour to get there. So, at least I got to wear a dry shirt but having the jeans soaked wet was really uncomfortable.

The worse was when I reached Uni, the rain stopped. Not for long though, but it kinda made me felt very unlucky. Sigh~ what a day..

I wasn't expecting anything for the day in Uni so, it went normal but when I was going back, cycling of course, something flew into my eyes! That was kinda painful. I was on my bike that time. I paused and rubbed my eyes trying to get whatever that was out from my eyes. I failed and having the uncomfortable eye until I got back. Besides that, while I passed through a small pool of water, the front tire of my bike actually splashed the water on to my face! How could that happened? I wonder..What a day..

When I got back, i found my laptop bag which I carried to Uni with me was full of mud stains. Sigh..I'll have to wash it tomorrow. Then there wasn't anything taken out to defrost for me to cook my dinner cause I was rushing out in the morning. So, I just simply made something for my dinner. sigh..what a day..

After all these discouraging and disappointing stuff, nothing pleasant happen at night but was rather cold. I did some assignment and thats it. Time for bed. Hopefully it will be better tomorrow.

Adam.

Everything started to roll

2009-03-17T16:02:00.003+08:00

This is the second week of my current trimester. Assignments due dates are getting closer, money are spending more in living expenses and utilities, I have quit from my part time to concentrate on my studies in first priority, I am getting used to cycling to and back from Uni, I knew quite some friends and formed groups for assignments, I am getting better in cooking (self perception :p), I am getting confuse with the theories, sometimes because the lecturers tend to be abstract...a lot more things going on around here.

I started adapting to this new environment, the place, the culture, the people, the studies, the climate and the independent living. Well, there is one thing that I find it hardest to cope with is the weather. It changes almost instantly and frequently. The minute that it was raining so heavily like there is no tomorrow, the next minute will probably be just the thick clouds and windy or you might even see the sunlight penetrating through the "was-supposed-to-be-thick-clouds". Anyway, the sun isn't really able to warm the atmosphere much at most of the time. The wind keeps the weather cool. Of course, there were days where we can feel the heat of the sun and I remembered myself wearing the sweater and riding my bike for an hour to Uni. I was sweating pretty badly that day and luckily for my own sake, i brought along an extra t-shirt to change.

After few years of working, I find studying quite pressurizing. The reason being is the fees to pay is very high and there are so much commitment in the sense that you are to confront all the people who had/have been giving their best support to you, despite you fail or success. Of course, under whatever circumstances it could be, I would definitely hope for the latter case.

Actually being here is a brand new experience to me. Although I am very sure that I wouldn't have any problem taking care of my own living, but if I were to support myself financially for everything here, then it is different story. The price to pay and the effort to put in is much greater than I had expected. If just by living expenses, yeah, I could work that out. But covering my tuition fees? Hahahaa..unless i am working a full time job here for a few years.

Well, the part time job I got previously was pretty good making me affordable for the living expenses and could even save a bit from time to time. However, the location is quite far and that I am still not sure how would the studies life be, so it might be better for me to look for a nearer part time job that could save me 3 to 4 hours from traveling just to work and back home. Just that I felt guilty and sorry for my previous manager for being so considerate and kind to offer me very well conditions and yet I had to turn him down.

I guess I will have to put more effort on my studies..Its all about study, study, and study, but of coz :p I will also take some time for my personal relaxation. Just to relax myself a little. But when I got part time job at nearer place..i guess that goes my personal hours..lets see how things work out by then.

Until then, take care my friends and mates. I miss you all.

Adam.

Earthquake?

2009-03-06T18:05:00.001+08:00

I was sitting in front of my computer trying to work on some stuff when suddenly my computer went shaking and i realized the shaking was gradually gaining higher frequency and magnitude. Things on the table and even the table itself started shaking. The feeling was like something huge or heavy was running around the house. The first thing that came to my thoughts was "Earthquake?" Quickly I dash out from my room and met my housemate with that shocked expression on his face shouting wats wrong?!

I then learnt that they actually never had something like this before. We checked around the compound and nothing suspicious was wrong. Guess we had the right idea that earthquake had just played a joke with us. Luckily it wasn't a tremendous or even serious earthquake. I would consider that as mild, just more shaky compared to the ones that I experienced back in Malaysia. Yeah! no doubt. Malaysia does have earthquakes nowadays. Rarely but yeah, I experienced twice. Actually the earthquake doesn't really occurred in Malaysia but it was just the effect coming from the huge earthquakes that occurred at somewhere else.

Apart from this, so sad I couldn't find my camera cable to copy all the photos I have taken so far and publish them here. Sigh...let me see if I could do that somehow.

Adam.

First week in Melbourne

2009-02-24T16:53:00.003+08:00

It is like a dream. Sometimes when I woke up in the morning, or letting out some water during the midnight, I felt like I was dreaming. Until now, I still can hardly believe I am already quite far away from Malaysia. So far, today was the first day I really been in my Uni. I went to my Uni previously, more towards finding out the public transport that I need to take to get to there and also trying to know more about the Uni compound so I can walk freely there when my classes start.

Well, until now, I still haven't really get used to the life here. The culture is different, the environment, weather, streets and places, people, almost everything. But these aren't the problems that keep me uneasy. It is the people in Malaysia that makes me feel so depress. It is not that I am not independent enough to live by my own. I can cook, I can do housework, I can take care of myself. But it is the warmth and happiness to be together with the people back in Malaysia.

Unconsciously, those activities that I engaged in everyday with you all in Malaysia, appeared to be the strength and source of energy for me to continue daily life. I did not notice it until I really left Malaysia. Hmm..but at this stage, there is nothing else I could do but stick to the current living until I complete my studies and is released to return to Malaysia.

Sometimes, things are easy to say, but tough to carry out. I used to say proudly that this is the path I chose to try my best to pave a better future for my love one and myself. Now, I know it is not easy to do. I need to be very determined and have great courage and support.

Everyone in Malaysia, I miss you all. Can't wait to get back to Malaysia again. But i still hate the weather and environment in Malaysia. The weather is dryer here, but much cooler (dunno about mid summer cause now is end summer) and is much cleaner here. Although the bush fire is still on, but the air is very much better than Malaysia.

I will try to update my blog more frequently show that you guys can know more updates about myself. And from next blog onwards, I will try to upload some photos and writing down more updates about my daily life here. Until then, please take good care of yourselves. Be happy

Adam.

守夜不成

2009-01-26T01:19:00.002+08:00

一向有守夜習慣的我,今年不行了.天王天后下了命令.

年少時,聽朋友說,孩子為父母守夜,父母在新的一年裡,會安康順利.至此,我就每年在除夕為父母守夜.雖然通宵成功率不高,但都會至少到破曉.

但是,今年,"守你個頭!", "不可以啊,去睡覺!".因為我今年得睡客廳,所以也沒得偷偷守.因為沒得看戲或做點甚麼的話,很難熬..

所以今年守不成了..但是,希望天宮不會吝嗇.請他們一定要再麻煩麻煩好好保佑我家人,平平安安,開開心心,健健康康..謝謝您們了.

在此,也恭祝各為,新年快樂,心想事成!!

煒筆止.

My Birthday

2009-01-24T00:58:00.001+08:00

Today was a great day. The story goes like this:

I was lucky to had one of my best friend to celebrate my birthday for me. Although it was a prompt arrangement, as I was going to collect my student Visa from the education agent, for the spare time that I had before going to meet up with my girl friend to spend some awesome time as my birthday celebration as well, I called my best friend and asked her to share some time for me.

She is a great fan of the Old Town Kopitiam. So, we met up at the kopitiam to have our late lunch for that day. To my surprise, she bought me a great mini size cake! Hahaha..too bad I do not have to habit to carry along a camera for photo shooting and my cellphone isn't capable enough to take down a clear image. If not I would be able to post it here. That cake was about 6cms in diameter. Nicely decorated as in sea bed theme. There was the famous Bruce (great white shark in Finding Nemo) on it, together with some colourful sugar sands and fake seaweeds. That Bruce was big as it almost occupied the whole cake's surface. Hahaha...funny when I looked at that. Wait a minute, on deeper thought, was she trying to tease me on that? Indicating I am Bruce? You better not be~ XD

She sang the birthday song for me, out of rythm though. But, sincerely thanks alot. I appreciate all these. It was really wonderful and memorable for me.

Later on, another of my best friend called me. He was trying to ask me out but not with the intention to celebrate my birthday because at that very moment, he had no idea it was actually my birthday. After a few catch ups, finally he realized and wished me. Mind as well celebrating for me then, but I had to decline his good deeds because I will be going out with my girl friend. After nagging and complaining, he had no choice but to let me go. Ha! Thanks bro, you always understand.

Then~ the best time of the day! I met my girl friend in KLCC. I brought her to claim her road tax allowance from the post office. It was hilarious when I found out myself barely remember her car plat number. The post office is closing at 6pm, and we were there struggling to recall the number. My bad. We had to wait for another day for that. Hahaha..we were standing at the counter, picking our best shot for a few tries but never made it. Luckily the lady did not shout at us. :p

My girl friend decided to treat me to my favourite sushi for dinner! We tried out the Sakae Sushi newly opened in KLCC. There wasn't much choice today but still we managed to stuff ourselves with great satisfactory. We were playing game with the wasabi. Whoever lost had to get a big bite on the wasabi and swallow it slowly. It was a fair game, where both of us had to torture ourselves once. Grrr...the wasabi was so agitating. Our noses and eyes...were so watery. hahahaha...also my bad idea.

After that, she took me to City Chain to get my birthday present. Her family and she decided to buy me a watch. It was a little upsetting because the promoter who served us wasn't in a good mood. Her long bitter face told us how uneasy she was at the meantime. However, after we bought the beautiful watch, she showed us a smile when I greet her "Gong Xi Fa Cai". Thank you very much, sweetie and family! I love that watch very much! I feel more stylish and handsome with that on me, or is it only me? XD Who cares!?

We then continue the night with a cinema show. My girl friend was complaining to me why didn't I choose to watch the "All's Well, End's Well" or "Underworld 3", instead, I chose to watch "Bedtime Stories". She was afraid that the movie might not be the type for both of us. Hahahaha...but when I recall the scenes in the movies, I can't stop myself laughing. That movie was great! Well, the story is not any extraordinary, but the movie was very entertaining, meaningful and funny. Adam Sandler, the famous comedy actor, put on a great show too. There were a lot scenes that was so funny that I could hear my loud laughter in the cinema. Obviously it wasn't only me laughing, but I might be one of the loudest. I even lost control when I heard the word "Mr Butt-Kiss, going around kissing other people's butt", and also that good friend of Skeeter able to translate his swollen tongue language. My girl friend was trying to cover my mouth when I burst into great laughter. HAHAHAHAHAA...

After all these activies, we set our way back home..it was quite late when we got home. Spent some time cleaning ourselves and there goes, ended my birthday with great moments and memories. Just one thing that wasn't perfect. I did not have the time to celebrate with my family. Perhaps on the CNY eve maybe? I guess.

Thank you everyone who wished me, who did something for me, who spend some time for me, who celebrated with me. Great having all of you..

Goodnitez..

碰釘

2009-01-13T23:06:00.003+08:00

傷了.很痛.

說得嚴重.看重?

弄巧反錯.

臉頰紅腫."看不到,不知道是不是真的."

算了,沒力了.

落寞,天曉得.

夜了,睡了.

新年2009

2009-01-01T22:59:00.003+08:00

又是新的一年了.一樣,要好好加油!

回顧2008,也是開心.嗯..2008年裡有了以下的變化:

搬進了新的家園. (不錯不錯!感恩ing)

嘗試了搬家的痛苦. (半條命,好險好險)

申請出國造學成功.(希望一切順利)

學會新的電腦語言.(還有得學呢)

多了一位知心朋友.(她知道我講緊她嗎?係!就係妳,唔好兩頭望)

認識新的部落朋友.(繼續多多指教)

了解了某人生道理.(其中最為實用的是.."待之以誠,隨遇而安"." 來之,安之".)

社會價值顯然提高.(^^,可惜要暫別工作)

和同事們關係進步.(會是單方面嗎?)
P/S: 除了經理. :P

更加清楚明白,電影裡的橋段和現實是沒差的.(朋友們,希望你們明天會更好!)

和女朋友恩愛依然.(加油!!)

還有~~很多很多很美好的回憶片段..別忘記才好.

2008,拜拜.

2009,多多指教了.

在此,願祝所有的人,每天得到眷顧,嚐到幸福,了解自己,認識彼此,身體安康,心想事成(別太貪心就對了).

新年快樂!

煒筆止.

異常不安

2008-12-30T00:44:00.002+08:00

今天..應該說現在,還有一天就要闊別2008年了.回想起2008,也往常般經歷了很多,改變了很多.回億休息站,又建立了一個.然而在這種時刻,我不是在回憶以往的點點滴滴...心中很不明白因何緣故..我一直感到很不安.有一種恐慌的感覺.很不是滋味...

彷彿有一種將會一無所有的感覺.到底是怎麼了?雖然我知道,自己對很多未有肯定的答案的事情忐忑不安.可是逐漸都讓自己習以為常,隨遇而安了.那麼,這些不安是怎麼了?是何故而生呢?我搞不懂.

無法入眠..很想找人談談..可是在這種時候,會有誰還未睡且有閒情跟我聊天呢?說穿了,是自己也不懂得怎樣和和誰談吧?畢竟能和自己談心事的人都不知道有幾位..再說,談談能幫到自己嗎?沒甚麼作用吧?

唉..還不成氣候..看來能出國,是好事呢..能磨練磨練自己.讓自己更加穩重,成熟.好讓自己能更加處之泰然.嗯..加油吧..煒榮.

煒筆止.

我哭了..

2008-12-16T00:00:00.002+08:00

昨天,很累.久別了運動,幸好天公作美下,讓我能盡興與堂哥痛快地打了一場網球.更認識了一位有緣人.
晚上,家裡也作東,請了親戚朋友的到來,聚一聚,吃大餐.作為主人家,當然得幫忙招呼客人,打點一切.忙頭忙尾的.本來都已經筋疲力盡了,在前後奔撲,真的是..汗跟隨時間一起流個不停..哈哈哈..多狼狽.

晚上,好累.好不容易到了睡眠時間.很快就入睡了..然而卻不是一個很好休息的夜晚.

昨晚,我發夢了.很悲傷,很悲傷的夢...

在夢里,不知怎麼的,我失去了她.徹底地...失去了她.雖然,在夢里,我遇上了另一個她.她與她,有如同人一般.樣貌,身形,動作..可是,我缺少了那種親近感.很陌生,接近不了她的內心世界.而常常,我會想起失去了的她.每當我一想起,悲痛刮心,那種痛徹心屝的感覺,真實的讓我覺得恐怖.因為..在夢里,有一次,我痛得哭了..

我覺得好傷感..好傷心...我真的哭了..

忽然咋醒..我發現,我真的在哭...眼淚在流,我的心也在痛..而且很痛很痛..我趕緊坐起來.讓自己回想起來..真實的世界,現在的我,到底是不是跟夢里一般,已經失去了她?很快..我冷靜了下來..很欣慰這一切都只是夢..

那種感覺,真的好嚇人.在今年,已經是第二次了.前一次的夢,雖沒這次般嚴重,但也痛得讓我從夢中嚇醒.醒來的時候,那種感覺,真的很不是滋味..

愿天保佑,這一切只會是夢..這類的夢,也少發點才好..

煒筆止.

燒烤夜#1

2008-12-15T00:22:00.001+08:00

女朋友的家人,待我真好!

女朋友的妹妹,生日就到了.不知是有意無意,他們安排了一個燒烤夜.其實,在他們知道我很喜歡燒烤之後,陸陸續續,都有過好幾次的燒烤慶祝.我很喜歡那種感覺.熟悉的朋友,親人,大家同聚,圍繞著火爐,邊燒東西吃,邊聊天暢談.那是多麼快活的一件事啊!

星期六夜晚,在女友家搞的燒烤夜,讓我很盡興.有頭到尾,我沒停止燒東西.燒給女友吃,燒給長輩吃,燒給鄰居吃,當然少不了自己吃啦!哈哈哈..我喜歡慢慢燒,將食物燒得均勻且讓人看了有種垂涎三尺的感覺,特別是雞翼.哈哈..忘了拍照炫燿炫燿一番. :P

那晚,除了玩得很開心,也讓我知道,原來暴龍也很辛苦.狂吃肉,是很膩很不舒服的.我吃了5個雞翼,好幾條香腸,肉丸等的肉類食物..讓我覺得真的好不舒服.過後猛吃青瓜中和中和一下.呵呵呵呵..過後也喝了不少中國茶,去一去油,良心才稍微過意得去..

若明年去了澳洲,那這一次就是在出國前最後一次在女友家燒烤了.希望回來能再搞一搞這種聚餐吧!

謝謝你們..女友妹妹,生日快樂,心想事成囉!

[填補:]
A: 燒雞翼~我鍾意食~
B: 但係你老母講你就快釘!
C: 越係快釘之所以越要整多只~
C: 如果而家唔食以後唔機會再食~

B: 你真係就快釘?
A: 我真係就快釘~
A,B,C: 如果而家唔食以後唔機會再食~

取自於周星馳的"唐伯虎點秋香".

煒筆止.

月亮的微笑

2008-12-03T22:37:00.006+08:00

在家的天台拍的

再一個特寫

愿大家都得到月亮的祝福!!

p/s: 要用LCD螢幕才能看到~

煒筆止.

多姿多彩

2008-11-27T11:13:00.003+08:00

昨天,我認識了一位新網友.以前,剛從中學畢業,在等著學院開課前,染上了上網的毒癮.每一天,都上網都三更半夜.當時後,認識了很多很多人.雖然如此,依然保持聯絡的,卻寥寥無幾.哈哈哈..逐漸減少上網聊天,讓大家彼此疏遠,因而失去連絡.當時後,很多都是不錯的朋友.經常一起聊八卦,傾聽他們訴說煩惱和難題.本人向來極少向人傾吐心事,所以聆聽較多.怎樣都好,至少大家都有在彼此的人生里路過.

昨天這位新網友呢,是從老明部落格里發現的.網名:新怡.(取自於新加坡+怡保).起初在閱讀她的部落時,因為沒登入自己的部落contact所以以匿名留言了.因曾祝福她"心想事成",在她希望我留下代號方便辨認時,就鬼扯地說,"就用心想事成吧!"

誰知,才轉眼,自己登入了後,在一次留言,竟然用了自己的帳號.哈哈哈哈..真的是超笨!但是也因此,收到她的電郵感謝我從看她的舊文章.更忽然收到msn的交友信息.哈哈哈..原來新怡看到我留在自己部落的msn contact.當時還真嚇了一跳.怎麼會知道我的msn呢.原來自己也忘了自己在個人資料里有寫上msn. ;p

不過也很開心能認識到新朋友.剛收到她的電郵時,有種措手不及的感覺.因為她簡單的電郵卻寫得很有禮貌,很客氣的.一向隨便,粗聲粗氣的我..哈哈哈..有點不習慣.該反省,該反省.．

看了她的部落,看了老明的部落,DONＬＩＭ的部落，還有很多人的，我發現，大家的部落格都很有趣．寫著很多心情故事，分享有趣的笑話，道理，時事焦點，等等．．等等．．更發現，原來閱讀他人的部落，比自己寫的更有趣．當然，我會繼續寫，因為，我也想記錄下自己一路走過的路．也讓關心我，卻不能時時刻刻陪我一起走的人，能多知道我的近況．

網路的世界．．真好啊！

煒筆止．

圣诞节...要來臨了!!

2008-11-25T10:14:00.005+08:00

如常般,經過klcc去上班.在不經意間,發現自己在隨著耳邊響起的音樂,邊走邊哼.才發現,聖誕節在1個月後,要來臨了.回想,自己在去年開始了自己的部落格,一部分的原因,也是因為在去年,過了一個很值得懷念的聖誕節.想好好記錄下來.不知不覺,寫部落已將近一年了.

今年也為聖誕節安排了節目;燒烤日!哈哈哈..在我最喜歡的節日,做我最喜歡的事情.希望那一天,也會是一個很盡興的一天.預約好了親友.只等待當天的來臨.在萬分期待,總有種迫不及待的感覺.

今年聖誕節,我會特別期待.因為或許,明年的聖誕節,我不在這裡與大家渡過.怎樣都好,把握現在,活再當下才是最重要!哇哈哈..

在這,預先祝大家有個快樂的聖誕節吧!

煒筆止.

青少年的無知

2008-11-17T10:28:00.000+08:00

大多青少年在涉足社會前,都會很享受少年時代.古語有雲:"生在福中不知福."
長期的享受,溫存於家庭的溫暖里,他們建立的,只是語言上的懂事.甚麼大道理,小常理,他們都總能自以為是的,講得出就視為懂.其實,他們壓根兒甚麼都不懂.甚麼讀書壓力,功課繁忙都只是雞毛蒜皮的小事,卻能使他們倍感壓力,喘不過氣來.當然,公平些,在他們的年齡,以他們的能力,如不需要,這點壓力就足夠了.然而,自以為是的他們,卻連最基本的本分都無法做好,還談甚麼明白道理,知足,還憑甚麼要人相信,他們是懂事的?!

在如此的情況下,父母扮演很重要的角色.呵護於溺寵是兩碼子的事. 我能明白,父母對孩子的疼愛.可是如果真把他們寵壞了,那再疼也沒用.裙腳仔,二少祖,敗家仔,甚至流氓,痞子有不少是因為父母的寵而變壞.到底是怎麼了?好奇怪.或許是因為我還未成人父,所以不明白其中.我或許也是我口中那些"說得出,就自以為懂的人".但是,如果我的孩子,不成性,不打不教.那我豈不是害了他和這個社會?

有些父母總是放不下身段.不去好好和孩子溝通.孩子又自己為是的.就算已經是二拾歲的人了,卻還不懂的體會父母的辛苦,清楚做好自己的本分,還總覺得是在被強迫.總是為你著想,要你好的人,難道真的是吃飽沒事干,特地去為難你不成?這麼直接簡單的,卻又不明白嗎?

真的是可悲..

煒筆止.

It has been a while...

2008-11-13T10:00:00.002+08:00

Since my last update on my blog, it was a month plus ago until I really have myself taking some time to update. It is not a daily news corner, I guess that is why I do not hold the obligation to update it daily or rather frequently. I was actually always telling myself, "Hey, I should write this in my blog", "Hey, I should write that in my blog". Anyhow, it did not happen like I thought. I was busy. Yeah, I consider that busy. You know something? I don't wish to write just a couple of lines as to show that I remember my blog space. It is neither that I wanted to write those pathetically few words to express that I am passionate to write something in my blog. Anyway, cut the crap now as I really don't have much time for this.

Throughout the past 1 month plus, of course, I did not just go through it like daily routine. I went to Singapore for the Google Talk, my uncle was back from Australia to visit us, I went to Adobe CS4 Product Launching which was also cool, I had great time with my family, friends and nevertheless my girl friend. The thing is, with very much blessing from the God, nothing really bad happened to me at that mean time. Everything was quite cool. I was glad.

When I went to Singapore, I managed to meet my ex-colleagues. Good to see them doing fine. Then I was thankful to see my uncle concern so much about my Australia studies and PR application. I was very impressed to learn about the advance technologies demonstrated by the Adobe Group. Lastly I was happy to see my family, friends and girl friends all in nice condition.
There were some unfortunate things that happen(ed), but hope everything will pass soon.

I just feel a little sorrow. As the clock ticks, time passes amazingly slow yet unnoticeable. It is scary. I feel excited but not as much as my worries. My heart gets heavier everyday. I started to feel sad when I think of I will have to leave everything behind for quite some time very soon. The path I have chosen, there is no going back. I won't want to go back either. I want a change. I hope this change will bring good to me and my love ones in future. I seriously hope nothing will go bad just like the past 1 month plus. Will luck be with me? I pray for that.

The World is so big yet so small..Ha!

2008-10-03T16:39:00.003+08:00

"Hey!! Wait a minute...That's him!! I'm sure that's him!!". In total excitement I shouted. My girl friend was as usual browsing her friends connected to her network in her friend community website when at an unintentional glance at the laptop screen, I caught this fella's name into my sight. Zi Qian.

The story goes like this. When I was young, very young, in primary school. There was a mate staying in the same residential garden as I do. We were classmates and as soon as we knew we were staying in the same garden, we shared the schooling transport. We got close very soon and we shared a lot of time together. We played together, I had tuition from his mom, I learnt swimming with him at TUDM, I went to his house often and much more childhood memories we shared. However, due to his father's occupation, he was moving away to a far state, Alor Setar. I wasn't a thoughtful friend and very reluctant to dedicate myself into the effort for keeping in touch with friends.

Initially, we still keep in touch by mailing each other. The technology wasn't so advance that time. We did not have messengers, emails or community websites like nowadays. We had to write letters to keep in touch for far distance relationships. I admit I was lazy that time. After a couples of mailings, slowly we lost contact. From time to time, I recalled about this friend. He was a funny guy who used to do some silly actions; the way he talked and laughed, or even clapping his hands. He was somewhat hilarious...hahaha, not teasing you dude, but you were really a funny guy. I guessed thats why I enjoyed the time with you and also the memories are bright and clear in my mind. I especially enjoy making fun of him by pretending that I did not believe in what he said. He will be over reacting. I mean OVER, extremely. HAHAHAHA...funny..

Anyway, I was totally surprise when I saw my girl friend actually having this guy as her friend. She actually did told me about this guy because he was one of her best chat friends last time. If I did not mistaken about that, when she told me about this guy and his name, I was telling her that I once had a friend with the same name. Who knows, it was really the same guy we were talking about all these time! hahahaha...

Thinking that I had lost contact with him, eventually I met my girl friend and we got along until now I found out that she actually knew my old time friend. Fate, miracles, surprises!! How beautiful is this world when it is full of surprises! hahahaha...So glad I found his contact....and nevertheless, so glad I knew my girl friend and very grateful we are together. MUAHAHAHAHA

部落格的好處

2008-09-19T13:01:00.005+08:00

最近,流行回顧.點擊回以往所紀錄在每篇的點點滴滴,真的讓自己回味無窮.過去式的,已經深深埋藏於記憶大海里.平時自己怎麼回想,也可能會略過的畫面,在從新看回時,那些一幕幕模糊的畫面再次浮出記憶海面,猶如新拼起的記憶.當時的心情,再度充徹心窩.那種滋味,我很喜歡...因此,我更為肯定,自己花心思時間而填寫下來的部落格日記,是那麼的寶貴..

最近,工作上,心里經常是去了平衡點.覺得很多事情都幾乎很不公平.心里的矛盾時而浮現.很多道理都明白,卻也覺得難道就不能做的完善些,公平些,甚至多體諒一些.難道,我們低層的,就是要做的有如奴隸一樣嗎?其實,我知道,我也有任性的時候.可是,我更清楚,如果你讓我覺得有歸屬感,讓我心服,我不會跟你計較.我是會在你敬我一尺,我回敬你一丈的人.信不信隨你.但是,我現在完全找不到理由說服我自己,為公司做出私人的付出.對不起,我真的找不到理由.但是,我仍會公私分明.給予我的工作,我會在我工作時間里完成給你.但是過了工作時間,那就抱歉啦.明天再談..

如果許可,我壓根兒不想把關係搞得這麼黑白分明.我喜歡享受工作,我喜歡彷彿一個大家庭一般的工作.我也希望我能從我的工作里,找尋到滿足,學習和成長的空間.畢竟,工作站了人生大部分的時間.可惜...事與願違...短暫里,我會做回本分,那就是了.

咦?似乎離題了.哈哈哈..我是想寫說部落格的好處的啊!

除了記載自己的心情故事,有人也把一些想與人分享的事情,寫在自己的空間.我經常瀏覽老明的部落格.哈哈哈..覺得他的人很有趣.一個中年人,他的心境,學問,為人(據我自己的猜測)以及心胸(也是猜測)都讓我覺得很敬仰.如果你們有時間,不妨去到訪看看.因一次我留下comment給他,因而'認識'了他.他也詢問我能否邀他閱讀我的部落格.其實,我的部落格並非開放給大眾,但由於現實生活中,我不認識老明,而也覺得他的人很不錯,所以我沒拒絕.

P/S: 老明,不知道你有否到此一游呢?哈哈哈..若有,我並非奉承你,而是真的覺得你的為人很不錯,也想與你交交朋友.我很喜歡看你的部落格,也覺得你的英文水準很不錯.好羨幕呢..

所以啊,我想說的是..部落格也能讓你交到朋友呢..不知道你們有沒有這樣的經驗?

煒筆止.

假期

2008-09-15T18:56:00.002+08:00

順應著自己的任性,給自己請了2天的假期.伴隨著中秋佳節的週末,我有了4天的小假.4天,對工作人士來說,可是相當可觀的假期了.哈哈哈..好像很pathetic(可悲).但是,這也是無可奈何的.怎樣都好,有謂,"快樂的時光過的特別快,又是時候說拜拜".四天的假日,眨眼即逝.今晚就得收拾心情回公司了.嗯..這四天過的雖忙,可是自己對著電腦的時間,幾乎不超過8小時.這可是非常非常難得的.哈哈哈...一直被稱謂電腦人的我,常懷疑沒電腦的日子我自己能怎樣過,原來,自己也會希望偶爾沒電腦的時候.哈哈哈..看來我也並非百分百的電腦人.

星期五,如願的,我去了女朋友家幫忙做月餅.所幸,我總算幫的上忙.也讓阿姨滿意我的手工表現.由於她在最後的幾天,接獲的訂單相當大.所以我很希望能幫上一點忙.自己下手幫忙,才真正體驗到要幫手也得很小心落力.手力,臂力,腰力,背力和專注力要夠之餘,輕巧和剛柔具備的手也是很重要.炒,翻,揉,折,壓,捲,敲,搓,捏..等等的口訣,缺一不可.份量拿捏,專業精神,衛生清潔的講究..單靠說明就累人了.更何況是在做的時候,要兼顧那麼多的東西.不曾下手的你,會輕描淡寫的讀過掠過.當中的奧妙,沒錯是很辛苦累人,但是也有一定的樂趣享受.哈哈哈哈..可能是一天半天的功夫,我能說"享受"..但是感覺真的還不錯.但是相信我,要做一個成功的餅家..真的是不簡單.所以我很佩服我的女朋友的母親,她能做出很多種不同的餅乾,糕點.對於她自己和她的幫手的要求也有一定的苛求.真是難得.星期五,我親身體驗了她和我女朋友常常幫忙的辛苦.難怪她會經常要我幫她按摩.哈哈哈..可是她也太少運動了,所以才那麼容易腰酸背痛.(:P 那天我也做的腰酸背痛呢)

星期六,發生了一些不愉快的事.不是很關連到自己,但是也是家人的事.沒辦法,差不多半世紀了,怨氣猶在.心中那股氣始終釋放不出來.唉~我們這些後輩也理不了那麼多了.不開心的,不說!SKIP!星期六,晚上是闊別很久的林家大聚會.在我小時後,親戚們都經常會在佳節聚集在老家,同歡共樂.經常玩得不亦樂乎.成人們小賭為樂,高談闊論.我們小瓜們就會一起想游戲玩耍.所以,我這輩的傢伙們都彼此感情不錯.經常還會大家聚一聚,喝茶做樂.小一輩的,因為長輩們的瓜葛,變得較為生疏.他們的家教,難聽點..也不是很好.很奇怪,特別是其中的兩兄妹.總是讓人覺得目中無人,沒半點禮貌.唉~怎樣都好,回歸話題.我爸爸為了讓兄弟姊妹,他那一輩以及上一輩冰釋前嫌好讓大家能再次如往常般聚集,好好相處,像一個真正的大家庭.所以嘛,苦了我媽媽和我和姊姊.我們忙著準備佳餚的材料和飲料,幫忙烹煮.加上星期五的勞累..哈哈哈...真的酸死了.但是,的確有享受到.當晚,家裡真的好熱鬧.幾乎全部親人都到訪.希望大家也玩的開心.他們接近2點才回.我好累,但是知道母親一定要我托地,在忙完收拾家裡的東西,碗碟,殘留下的食物飲料後,我就自動自發的去抹地.哈哈哈...累得半死了..

星期天,睡到中午12時方起身.不錯吧?不久,大堂哥問我要不要上他的新家坐坐.結果一待就待到6點多.晚上,外公的生日.又是在我家慶祝.回家了,稍微忙了一陣子.家裡有很熱鬧了.所幸,這次親戚會幫忙洗些碗碟.也不會忙得太多.這三天,真的是充實.很~充實吧?哈哈哈..自己的東西倒沒甚麼時間做.還好今天還有一天的時間.做我的遊戲,進展野蠻順利.真的是太好了!恩..哈哈哈..但是心裡有點貪心.希望能多一天的假期,真正的作一天的豬.希望..豬假期能快點到來..

中秋節..不錯..希望大家也都享受了想過的中秋吧!

煒筆止.

好累哦

2008-09-08T15:40:00.001+08:00

真的好累好累...好想放個大假.在家里盡情的做豬...zzzZZ

我的九型人格分析

2008-08-28T10:46:00.003+08:00


第九型	和平型、和平者、和諧型、維持和諧者 15%
第一型	完美主義者、完美型、改革者、改進型、秩序大使 13%
第三型	成就者、事業型、成就型、實踐型 12%
第四型	藝術型、浪漫者、自我型、憑感覺者 12%
第七型	快樂主義型、豐富型、活躍型、創造可能者、享樂型 12%
第二型	助人者、全愛型、助人型、成就他人者、博愛型 12%
第六型	忠誠型、忠誠型、尋找安全者、謹慎型 10%
第八型	領袖型、能力型、挑戰者、保護者、權威型 9%
第五型	智慧型、觀察者、思想型、理性分析者、思考型 8%

我的九型人格分析？

Friends

2008-08-22T09:45:00.002+08:00

In the past, when I was much younger, I used to act weirdly. Thinking it was cool, I had been keeping everything inside myself. My thoughts and feelings were all the time keep nicely deep in my heart. The funny thing was, my face will always betray myself. Whatever emotion was on the theme, my face will show it completely. Everyone will know, or more or less understand, there must be something wrong with me. However, the expression of my face, even by just keeping silent, is fierce enough to keep everyone away. Whats more when I am in an awful mood.

When I grew older, as in what I am now, I understand that I am actually the type that not good in expressing myself, especially the real way I am feeling. I don't know the exact way to transmit my inner message to people's channel accordingly. Nevertheless, I am lazy to express myself in a very detail manner nor I am patient for doing that. Hence, I choose to keep it to myself.

Until now, even my closest friends, are not able to know much about myself. My girl friend, spending most of the time with me is able to understand me, surprisingly thorough. There are times when I was totally unexpected when she was able to pronounce what I was having in mind. I was pleased and well, rather scary. Hahaha..I started to wonder, what if she really can read my mind all the time? I will be dead meat. Hahahaa..

Sometimes I was thinking, Do someone really need friends? Or should it be, Do someone really need to be so concern about what his/her friend(s) is(are) thinking. Does he/she has to be so considerate that he/she has to be contradicting his/her own to please his/her friend. Do friendship has to workout that way? I really wonder...

Anyway, I will stick to my own principle. Eventually people with same channel will get along. No point being so forceful, no one will appreciate. At the end, people are still selfish and self centered. What they care about is how you treat them but not committing like they are treasuring the friendship.

People are changing, society is changing, the rule of this survival game has changed. How pathetic and demoralizing. How should I educate my child? "Don't friend with people who don't appreciate you"? or "No need to be so perseverance about friendship, get along when they get along"...sigh....

Last Minute

2008-08-07T16:17:00.003+08:00

Source: http://cforum6.cari.com.my/viewthread.php?tid=1257471&extra=page%3D4

夜深人靜,孤枕難眠

2008-08-05T23:54:00.002+08:00

滴答...滴答...

安祥的夜晚,當多數的人們都沉睡在夢鄉,動物們也往暖窩里鑽時,房里的時鐘卻在賣力地提醒我時間的飄逝.平時環境周遭的聲音都輕易埋沒時鐘的努力,只有在這種時候,它格外響亮.簡單的滴答聲從不起眼的角落傳出,成功地突顯它自己的苦幹,也提醒了我,在渾然不知的時時刻刻,它一直在為我耕耘.

有一句英文句子,"Once In The Blue Moon", 其意思是說在不時的情況下.對,不時我總會有失眠的夜晚.而每每在這種夜晚,總會特別的感慨.今晚,又如一貫,在睡不著的時候,我就上網溜達.不一樣的是,我能寫寫部落格消磨時間.

以前,越是夜晚,人越精神.有種沸騰的心情,卻也帶上幾分抒情.喜歡在晚上做做東西,消磨消磨空閒,卻怎麼也不想好好上床休息.彷彿害怕夜晚一去不留,永遠再也不能看見月亮的懸掛,星星的閃爍,和天空為大地蓋上涼快黑暗的被單,讓大地的吹息,生物在寧靜的懷抱下輕鬆休息.然而,隨著成長,人事已非.夜晚不再讓我沸騰,夜晚不再讓我眷戀.我明白到,夜晚是時候讓自己卸下白天的疲憊好好充電的好時刻.不變的是,我依然喜歡在晚上靜坐在外,仰望月亮.如果是仰躺在沙灘上,那更是完美的環境設定了.

不知道為甚麼,今晚的失眠,讓我心里萌生了一種落寞感.很寂寥,很孤單的感覺.好像沒甚麼依靠,很空虛的感覺.很奇怪..究竟為甚麼會感覺到寂寞呢?不明白..想不透..也不想去多想..大概是感慨的影響吧..

回想以前,在較青春的歲月里,與朋友談心總免不了談到兒女私情.甚麼暗戀,喜歡,苦惱,傷心,失望的種種..種種..心裡頭總是會酸酸苦苦地.偶爾的驚喜為這種難熬的心情撒上了一些糖霜.雖然很稀,卻有著莫大的推動力,讓鬥志再次燃燒,追求目標.哈哈哈..從前的我,真的是只有讓人搖頭的份兒.苦水一桶桶,裝得滿滿地..不太向人揭露內心世界的我,結果還得把苦水好好消化掉呢...哈哈哈哈..

怎麼講起了這些陳年望事呢?哈哈哈..真的太感慨了.眼皮開始沉重了..我想,大概能睡了吧..大家晚安啦..好好休息吧~

煒筆止.

Splendid Dream

2008-07-29T10:51:00.002+08:00

It was a miracle to have such a dream. The dream was so real that I almost can't differentiate it with the reality!

I can't remember the whole story of the dream..However, I remember the place and, the one who was with me in my dream. It is not my first time to dream of someone who I did not know. But this dream...was so special. Why? Because it was so real and it was so impressive. I was in total pleasure and enjoy the time in that dream...

It was a girl in the dream with me. I barely recall her appearance. But we were sharing some time together. She was very kind to have pleased me and satisfied my unreasonable request in the dream. I was so glad that not only that she was not mad at me, but together she tried to engage herself fully together with me. Hahahaha..you who read this might feel a little disgusting or wondering about some bad thoughts, but believe me. It is more pure than a diamond, crystal clear like water. Nothing bad or evil that holds in this.

There is one thing I would like to clarify. Sweetheart, you are still the one that I love. After all, that was just a dream. Nothing that will happen in reality. So, keep the vinegar bottle down, ok? :p

From time to time to have such a dream would be great! Well, we should enjoy the sleeping time don't we?

Wish you guys some sweet dreams too.

Why can't you understand?

2008-07-26T20:21:00.002+08:00

I know I was lost controlled. I also know I should not shout at you in front of someone else. But why don't you understand why was I so mad? Do you really think it is just a matter about myself? It was so disappointing..really disappointing.

You are not a kid anymore. Even if you were, you still won't get the privilege or stand any chance to take it for granted. People's concern and tolerance are just because they care about you, though you don't feel it or understand it. I shouted at you all because it is for the sake of yourself. Do you want your descendant to behave something like you are? That behavior of yours is so impolite and bad that you should have corrected it ages ago!

It was not the first time myself or other people around warned you about that. Yet, all the advices fell into deaf ears. Your ignorance showed how worthless our concern and advices have been. Was it so difficult to let yourself listen to someone's piece of advice? I really don't understand. Whats more when you even still can't differentiate the issue and main point that I was trying to make it clear but you were messing it together with some other stuff.

I know very clearly how good you treat me in other matters. I never denied that in front of anyone. I even said I know how good you are to me. But, that does not mean you can behave in that selfish and reluctant way. Sigh~ really so upset to see it happening this way.

Its nothing now. I won't want to say anything more or even give any more advice. Whatever or however you will be or wanna be, its all up to yourself. I give no damn about it, no more. I can't see why I have to be so concern when I was even thought to be the guilty one. Pointless..

Using software and Developing Software

2008-07-20T21:34:00.003+08:00

It was my first expose to the sophisticated software that is already in the market for AGES!! The software is from a well known company with great variety of products published. However, I, who does not belong to the design field kept myself in the stone age and not knowing how impressive this product could actually do to my art work!

Anyway, its still not too late to give it a try. It was a hard time struggling initially when I first created a new file from the menu. I was pondering and wandering around the software, wondering what I should do or lay my mouse on it to trigger the brain of the software to let it understand my thoughts and actions. I was too naive for thinking that by understanding the English labeled menu options and buttons (that are in great numbers), I will be able to at least produce something, not exactly or even close but similar to what I intended to do. Understanding the English is not good enough to let my plan work, whats more when I don't even understand, I suppose, most of the terms.

I keep trying and trying and at the end, all I got was crap. What you see is what you get. LOLz.

Well, nothing much I can do but to try and try. Believe me, don't try to push your luck too far when you are dealing with something that are so powerful. The controls and functions are too complex for you to even get the brief idea of what it can do for you. It is not a matter of one click and yes, you got what you want. You might need to hold your mouse until a hidden pop up menu shows to you what you can further manipulate with that "simple" action. Combination with the keys on your keyboard can let you to perform more stuffs that you won't know this function actually exists.

God knows what you can do when you are totally illiterate with such complicated software. Poor me overly confident and optimistic wasted quite some time and many many tries to produce my crap. Luckily~ I have my way or should I say I got a goddess that is just the right person to aid me and end my misery. I got a interior designer galfren!!

She was staying at my place for a couple of days when I took the advantage to squeeze her for the essence of knowledge regarding this piece of software. Oh my god! I finally realized how remarkable the software can perform! There are so many features and functions that could help to create what you need in no time, provided you KNOW how to function this software. I was totally impressed. My galfren then told me that she just know a bit out of the whole software. I can't believe that. But one thing I am now firm with is that no matter how realistic you see a photo that is showing some unbelievable stuff such as a dog with a man's face from the Internet, doubt it! It could just simply a piece of work from any software similar to this.

Not only impressed with how powerful this software is, as a software developer myself, I am impressed with the effort and work from the developer team. They are good. I don't know how much effort and how they actually manage to develop this software, but definitely they are good.

I started to pick up a little and now keep on exploring more hoping to see if I can do better than just a crap. Hahaha..god bless me.

我的部落格

2008-07-14T21:07:00.002+08:00

無意識間,我的部落開始很冷清了.本來就沒甚麼來客的,連主人也越來越少填補的空間,更顯得空檔冷清.可悲阿~可悲..

是我最近都不怎麼樣嗎?還是我變得懶散了?有或是沒甚麼值得我紀錄的嗎?非然~

最近,很多事情.很多我想紀錄下來的.可是,我也不怎麼有那種美國時間.忙得一塌糊塗.當然,如果一個人,全天候都在說自己有多忙有多忙,那他永遠都不會有時間.我,當然不希望這樣.所以,我選擇了,抽出我的時間,好好填補填補我的部落的落寞感.

最近..真的很多事情.首先,先說開心的.

女朋友的媽媽,最近纏上了某種毛病.因而郁郁寡歡.極度擔心和無助的她,讓身邊的我們,也替她憂心.然而,我們無法給予她適當的幫助,只能千遍一律地默默支持和安慰她.一直到終於,皇天不負有心人.我們找到了貴人.雖然還不知道事情接下來的發展,然而,燃眉之急,唯有一試.希望真的找對了人.然後能將惡夢徹底破滅.我會為她深深地祝福.

再來,與舊同事不久前的聚會.感覺真的很不錯.大家不但沒生疏,而且還相當熟悉.大家依然都很健談.歡笑聲不斷.偶爾談起舊事,說得歷歷在目.彷彿一切都在昨天才發生.真的很懷舊.大家的感情依然,這是很難得的.我很珍惜這一些時光,和這一班朋友.雖然已經個分東西,但是依然保持聯繫.但願能一直延續下去.

開心事說完了,到不開心的.

女朋友最近對工作很困擾.剛畢業出來,還嫩得很.被人大石壓死蟹,也只能啞巴啃黃蓮.經常以淚洗臉.真的是讓人痛心不已.然而,我除了一而在,再而三地苦苦勸說,安慰和傾聽她吐吐苦水以外,我甚麼也幹不了了.唉,曾經我也一樣.總愛把責任往肩膀扛.連別人的份,責任,工作也說成是自己的業務.然後才來迫切,煩惱,徹夜難眠.不想看著她步我後塵.我希望她能了解,真正工作應該做的,清楚自己的崗位和責任,做好本分,就好交代了.再來的,管他天皇老祖都是假的.這就是我們應該做的.

今天,她在家人和我的支持下,交上了辭呈信.其實,從她經常跟我訴苦的時候,我總覺得她的上司,並不是一個不講理的人.應該是一個會分是非的人.我一直建議她嘗試跟她的上司談談.讓他了解一下狀況.或許,並非她想像中那麼糟糕,而還有商量的餘地.畢竟,辭職並不是一樣好玩的東西.苦於一直找不到適當的機會,卻又屢屢遇上沒道理的強迫.在今天辭呈時,上司雖然不在公司,但是在收到秘書的通知時,就致電給我女朋友問個究竟.了解後,說明天好好和我女朋友談一談.雖然事情談不上告一段落.但希望這一次之後,女朋友的工作環境能稍有改進.讓她能好好的做下去,那我就放心了.

之後,不開心的事是,因為都很忙,我無法達成允諾於朋友們的預約而跟他們去好好的玩一玩,聚一聚.唉,真的很無奈.朋友們一直傳來失望的聲音,我其實很欣慰.因為這樣證明他們真的把我當一夥,可是真的很抱歉,我不是一個好朋友.我經常然你們失望.其實,在這種天天忙碌的的日子,我真的好希望也有時間能出去輕鬆輕鬆一下.如果能跟你們出去,我想一定能然自己好好充電一番.只可惜...事與願違...

再說,朋友們,最近都有個自的事情煩惱著.可是,我又幫不上忙.想聽他們訴說,可是有好像很難有機會跟他們坐下來好好替他們分擔分擔.面對與我自己的無助,我覺得好像很糟糕.眼睜睜看著他們的痛苦,我自己卻分身不來.我也明白,事情不是說,想分擔就能直接分到,需要時間去醞釀情緒,也需要時間好好聽他們慢慢訴說.也或許我不是他們想分擔的對象.怎樣都好,我希望我能幫得上忙.也希望他們的煩惱能早日解決.

好了,說著這麼多先吧.我也要睡了.朋友們,家人,親人...希望大家一切安好.晚安了.

煒筆止.

小賭與大賭特賭

2008-07-02T15:34:00.003+08:00

上個週末,和女朋友一家人上雲頂高原渡假.感覺還不錯!比想像中花少錢卻也過得滿輕鬆自在.星期六,因為女友爸爸從朋友手中得來4張蓉祖兒的演唱會入場券.本來對她沒特別地欣賞,卻在2個半小時後,有了相當大的改觀.她很強,性格也讓人覺得活潑開朗,很真,不帶做作.除非她是裝出來的,否則,真的讓人感覺很不錯.

然而,演唱會雖然很震撼很爽,但是VIP座位也不是想像中的好.太靠近喇叭了.演唱會結束後,耳鳴了好長的一段時間才恢復聽覺.很不是滋味.讓我也想起了,哥哥临婚前夜,我們去了夜店.當時,第一次去,裡面的音樂音量,大得似乎要把客人轟出店外.我們離開夜店時,我基本上和撞礱的沒甚麼分別.跟身邊的人講話,都是用喊的.太恐怖了.也因此,我不喜歡去夜店.我不喜歡多人,吵鬧的環境.

上雲頂,女朋友想去賭場見識見識.往里邊跑,看到太多太多人,不斷往桌子上扔籌碼.彷彿都只是小孩在玩家家酒.看到許許多多人,被矇蔽了.血汗錢都不是一回事了.拼個財散人安樂方罷.唉..小賭能怡情.這不是甚麼值得鼓勵的,卻也不妨.但是,50歲以上站大部分的叔叔阿姨們,甚至公公婆婆們,都在大賭特賭.真的那麼值得嗎?真的那麼好玩嗎?真的那麼好賺嗎?真的那麼有錢嗎?

唉~~看見他們這幅德性.我也直感無奈..可悲可悲...

煒筆止.

單吊 - 忙

2008-06-27T18:27:00.004+08:00

最近比較忙,比較忙~

最近工作上實在是忙得喘不過氣來.幾乎都在工作到9點左右才能回家.回到家,冲凉吃飯,歇一歇就已經11點了.身心疲憊得很..家里的網路又還未安裝好.縱然已經三番四次地打電話去投訴甚至開始用非常生氣的語氣去吵鬧,他們也顯得然諾泰山.不當一回事.實在是馬來西亞之光..無奈啊無奈...

與朋友和哥哥私底下做的東西,也因為上不了網,加上工作上的忙碌,根本是進展緩慢.希望他們會體諒.不然,我想情況大概會很糟糕.當然,如果他們不能理解體諒,大概也算人之常情吧.自從開始做這計畫,不久後,我開始忙著搬家.之後,電腦出問題.接著,工作上忙碌,星期天也得上班.在之後,一直上不到網,沒辦法做research,現在又開始忙了,也依然上不了網.問題接二連三..彷彿,我不應該跟他們一起合作一般.

其實,我很希望能參與,因為是自己的興趣.會就讀電腦科系也是因為有這樣的理想.再說,如果成功,可能也會是自己一個很好的出路.希望情況並不是自己想像的那麼糟糕.畢竟,開始時大家都說了這是業餘,而且為學習和理想而做.

合作上,有時會覺得滿孤立.因為當中,我哥哥,兩個朋友都是在同一間公司上班.他們互相接觸比較多.他們都知道大家的工作,加上他們不必加班,經常溝通.有時候,在討論時,我總覺得被孤立了起來.我的"聲音",總是比較難被聽見一樣.怎樣都好,沒辦法啦.一般上,認識與熟悉當然有區別.畢竟,我也只認識他們.對他們的事,也大多是聽從哥哥的口中.第一次與其他人合作,希望不會太失望才好.

這些日子過得很忙碌,也讓我與朋友們的接觸機會少了很多.不知道他們還好不好.希望大家一切安然.希望大家日子還過得不錯,開開心心,健健康康.

煒筆止.

孤單亦有時

2008-06-13T14:38:00.001+08:00

今天,在黯然的驅使之下,阿當回顧了阿當海洋.茫茫大海,烈日陽光讓沙灘醞釀著溫暖的感覺.站在沙灘上,再一次感受著這片舒適的自然空間.

人不知覺,緩緩走下海.海浪輕拍腳背,似乎含有歡迎之意.逐漸海水淹沒蓋頂.放松身軀的殺那,阿當浮上了水面.睡在海面,傾聽海水陣陣傳進耳里的交響曲.陽光照射下,彷彿蓋上了隱形被單.暖暖舒服的叫人不得不輕合雙眼,閉目養神了起來..

很舒服的情景.很輕鬆的畫面.可是,不知道為甚麼,卻萌生了一種孤寂的感覺.在掙開雙眼時,發現自己站在海面.不自禁地放眼遙望.環顧四周,卻無法為眼帘增添人影的型態.掛上的風景,依然缺乏生氣.充滿著自在,空蕩,輕鬆的落魄感.

少有的情景,提醒了阿當..孤單亦有時.

煒筆止.

用心

2008-06-09T17:51:00.002+08:00

由小到大,身旁的人,特別是長輩都經常叮嚀我們,無論做甚麼,都一定要用心去做.盡可能,不讓自己抱有遺憾.要嘛,就不做.既然做,就盡全力去做.來個一不做,二不休.總而言之,用心就對了.成與否,就聽天由命.管不了那麼多了.

其實,我在想,用心是不是除了要放心機下去,用非常細膩的心,盡最大的努力之餘,還應該小心聆聽我們內心的真正意願和聲音呢?

我不知道,一路教導下來,續而傳之的"用心"是否有包含了我所想到的意義.但是,我覺得既然是用心,如果連我自己都無法聆聽我們自己內心所想傳達的訊息,那,還有誰知道,你做東西,真正的用心是在哪?只因為你把東西照著大眾觀點所認為的程度完成而完成,就是俗語的"用心"?還是,在過程中,你都很努力,人人都看到你的用功以及埋頭苦幹,所以你被公認為"有用心做事"?

當然,你大概會覺得,還是要視乎情況而定.做壞事,姑且免談.也不需要去問那麼無聊幼稚的可能性.我覺得,我們做東西,其實比努力更來得重要的,難道不是我們內心所有的心情,決定,和心聲嗎?

說的好聽.

有多少人,真的能隨著自己的"心"去做東西?時光的栽培,把我們帶往肩負的越來越多責任,面對越來越多得交代的人的路上.到現在,有幾多事情,我們是能"用心"去做?有幾多路,我們是能"用心"去走?

很可悲.現實是很慘酷的.我們漸漸忘記了任性的重要.我們忘記了"用心"是否有更深一層的涵義.也忘記了,要常常聆聽我們內心一直渴望傳進我們腦海里的聲音.

其實,我並非在埋怨些甚麼.只是偶然發現,"用心"的應用,因而有感而發.但是,我很想提醒有緣人,或者我身邊的人.如果,你活在能"用心"的日子里.請儘量珍惜.你不會知道,你何時會開始忘記.就好像許多人一樣,忘了聆聽..

希望你能找回曾經"用心"的你..

煒筆止.

我的第一次...#4

2008-06-08T14:48:00.002+08:00

忙碌的生活,讓我忽略了它.屢次腦海中出現它的呼喚,我卻無暇回應.對不起,我擱下了你.說穿了,其實,就是有一段時間,沒更新我的部落了.

不知不覺,搬進新家,已經一個星期有餘了.新環境,新空間讓我似乎也養成了新習慣.不知道是否是因為剛搬進去,一切都還很新鮮.很有心機去保持屋子裡的一切.怎樣都好,希望能維持下去,至少直到我出國前.還不知道,出國的事成不成.但是,既然還在進行中,就暫不提.當作計畫的一部分吧.花了一番心思,我佈置了我的玻璃櫃.將我的收集品一一擺放好.

恩,感覺還不錯.哈哈哈..不枉我收集了他們.而且我也才發現,原來兒時,所買下的漫畫還真的不少.不過,也不會後悔,因為他們都很盡責地陪我成長.有時候,重新閱讀他們時,會勾起我遺忘的童年.感覺很好.恩,我很喜歡這一切.雖然,舊屋子,讓我很有歸屬感.可是,因為家里地方不大,很多雜物都往房里堆.導致房間空間也小了,擺放東西的空間不多.現在,不一樣了.空間多了,自然好擺設.所以,更讓我覺得新房間,很快就融入我的內心.很快就接受了它.不會感覺到陌生.

新房間,空氣也比較流通.經常讓我覺得涼涼的.早上8點起身,雖然冷氣在6點已經關了,但也不會覺得悶熱.直接去洗個熱澡.順便刷牙洗臉.這樣就準備好了新一天的我.其實,說起來,我會覺得有一點奢侈.感覺好像生活太好了.錢不是很會賺,但是好像很奢侈.哈哈哈...不要想太多.就很感激讓我能有這樣的生活的父母,以及神明的眷顧.

可惜,新屋還沒有電話,所以沒得上網.工作上,也相當忙碌.我擱下了我的私人工作也一段時間了.另外,我的新家,手提電話的訊號很差.很容易斷線,也很難收到短訊.這是滿麻煩的.除了這個,我想,新屋子沒甚麼不好了.

哈哈哈..雖然住新屋子很開心.可是搬家真的很累.手臂除了傷痕累累.也不少地方撞傷黑青.哈哈哈哈..真的是有苦自知..

煒筆止.

新屋

2008-05-28T19:13:00.002+08:00

還有一天,我就搬遷到新房子了!!

其實,興奮也不怎麼.期待,確倒有.我會期待的原因是,我的房間稍微寬大了.我能稍微佈置我的房間,擺放我的收集品.而且,我不必再為早上洗澡而煩惱了.因為~~新房子有熱水器!!哈哈哈哈..我不喜歡冷氣,雖然消暑很棒,可是我不喜歡吹冷氣.特別是晚上睡覺,能免則免.原因是因為我很不喜歡,很討厭早晨醒來時,周圍的東西都冷冰冰.睡醒時,暖暖地才是最棒!

可惜,如果只打電風扇,雖然睡醒時很暖,可是空氣很不流通,對人不好.(經常如此,被家人和女朋友投訴了很多次).無奈,只好使用冷氣機.晚上又不能開窗戶,蚊子會讓我沒得好睡.也因如此,睡醒時,都很不舒服.到處冷冰冰.家裡沒熱水.要洗澡,根本就是要了我的老命.

所以呢,我很期待搬進新家.每當睡醒時,就算冷冰冰的,我也能及時冲個熱水凉.哈哈哈哈..應該會很舒服吧?

搬家呢,其實很辛苦.當然,最辛苦的不是我.是我父母.新屋子是他們買的.花了一大筆錢,真的辛苦他們了.兒子不中用,幫不了他們.也謝謝他們,讓我有更大更舒服的地方住,也讓我嘗試了搬家的滋味.

這次搬家,忙了很多天.東西好像總是搬不完.很恐怖.究竟東西是那兒來,真的是摸不著頭腦.總而言之,就是搬個不停.收拾完了,還是要收拾.不過,終於到了尾聲.幾乎都整頓得7788了.星期五,正式入屋.聽說,要全家人一起,要帶著裝得滿滿地米缸,帶著油,火炭,鹽,和住家神像一起進屋.應証所謂的材,米,油,鹽才吉利.同時間,還要再進屋子前,將一些錢幣撒在地上,踏著這些錢幣進屋.哈哈哈哈..很奇怪吧?但是,也挺有趣的,不是嗎?

期待,期待!呵呵呵呵..

煒筆止.

電腦寄生蟲

2008-05-28T18:55:00.003+08:00

文明的進步,科技的發達, 人類不斷尋求進步..其中之一偉大發明:電腦.

中學三年,我擁有自己的第一部電腦.當然,不是我一個人的,與兄姐共同使用.當時,對電腦全然毫無頭緒.碰甚麼都會再三思考.彷彿害怕電腦因此而不能再使用了.很好笑..但是,也是從那時開始,我接觸到電腦.也領教到了它的魅力.逐漸,我被迷惑了.不知不覺,我愛上電腦了.使用它,已經成為我生命的一部份了.沒有了它,誇張得有如度日如年.除非外出,不然,它離我不多過一呎.情況變得更嚴重,當我有了手提電腦後.我甚至會把它一同帶進廁所.

我被諭為過分依賴電腦的寄生蟲.我不否認.經常使用它,我已經學會不用看鍵盤也能打字.經常使用它,我已經懂得一般會遇上的電腦問題,所以不會害怕使用.經常用它,我已經變得有甚麼難題,都會上網尋找有關資料,就連烹飪的食譜也一樣.經常使用它,我已經變得有事沒事都會開著它,按著這裡那裡.經常使用它,我已經忘了在空閒時間,我是怎麼渡過了..

我已經被荼毒太深了.但是,使用電腦也是我的工作.所以,它跟我的關係,已經是形影不離了.我仍然會檢討.我不會再依賴它.有工作時,我會用,娛樂時,我會用.我不要再把它當成是我的一部分.

最重要是....我不要在當寄生蟲~~~~

煒筆止.

哈哈哈...我好過份啊!!

2008-05-20T10:06:00.002+08:00

最近,在忙著搬家.收拾收拾才發現,原來自己還滿多東西.也發現,原來很多東西都被收藏在一二角.到找到時,才警覺自己很懷念的東西都被忘了.嗯..好事好事..讓我再一次找到他們..

事情是這樣的.星期六,女朋友家鄉,鄰居嫁女兒.叫我要出席晚宴.所以星期六就在女朋友家逗留.再出席晚宴時,才發現新娘化的裝好濃厚.有一種滿恐怖的感覺.平時新娘見多了,雖然都很艷,但不會嚇人.可是..這一次..被嚇到了.女朋友的弟弟,跟我說了一句話,讓我萌生同感之餘也覺得自己過份了."她好像有點像如花."有看周星馳電影的,對這名字不會陌生.她不是真的很像,只是有少許他的影子.我真的過分了.但是,這不是讓我在標題發笑的"過分".

可能是顯眼報,我應該在晚宴吃錯東西.結果,星期天,肚子痛了整天.並沒有腹瀉,也沒嘔吐.只是很疼痛.絞痛.可是,因為忙於搬家,搞到整個人散完了.力氣都快使不上來了.晚上要為哥哥慶祝生日,所以有吃晚餐,午餐免了,生日蛋糕,更是碰都不敢碰.

昨天,有些家具要填補.所以和媽媽姊姊一起去百貨公司.讓我發笑的就是這里了.媽媽要買一個浴帘.前往部門詢問.當姊姊問到銷售員:"do you have shower curtain?"哈哈哈...他整整停頓了3秒鐘.我不知道為甚麼,顯然之後的答案他是明白我們要甚麼,但是,那一刻,他連表情,動作,眼神..整個人!都停了下來.好像錄影機的PAUSE一樣.我忍不住,快步走開,轉頭狂笑..哈哈哈哈..想不到真的有這樣的事情.我還以為只有周星馳的電影才會有的畫面.哈哈哈哈...真的是..笑死我了..

我過份了... :P

煒筆止.

成熟穩重

2008-05-16T09:53:00.002+08:00

是甚麼在改變著自己?我不禁問著裡面的我..

今天,往常般程搭著電車去上班..("上班"這字眼真讓人感慨.如果是"上課"該多好!).擁擠逼人的車廂,塞得滿滿的上班族.電車飛快的行駛,卻擾亂不了車鏡反影的自己."奇怪了,難道就是這麼一副表情?"

最近,也非然,其實更早前,身邊的人,朋友,女朋友,甚至女朋友家人,都說我不一樣了.變得終日鬱鬱寡歡,氣息也變得沉靜許多.當時,我充滿疑問,"我並沒有不開心啊..怎麼可能會一副苦瓜臉呢?"一直不明白到底是怎麼一回事.直到,剛剛看見平時看不見得自己.原來還真得滿恐怖.彷彿全車箱的人都與我不共戴天.奇妙的是,心情並沒有很醜陋.腦海中也沒暫盤旋著甚麼不快的事.

我,怎麼了?是甚麼讓自己不再笑臉迎人.是甚麼剝奪了我的笑容.女朋友常說,"你不再像以前那麼真心的笑了.每次笑,都好想不是發之內心.你幾久沒開懷大笑了?"今天之前的我,不當是一回事.我覺得可能是她想多了.然而,現在是猜疑浮生...

是不是隨著年齡的成長?是不是因為變得成熟了?大家都說,一個人長大了都會變得沉默,顯得穩重.是不是呢?又或是,連我自己也想多了?

以前,我被人稱為開心果.有我的地方,就會有歡笑聲.連我爸爸,也跟朋友炫耀過,他這個兒子很厲害逗人笑.當然,這些都是铺滿灰塵的往事了.別問我,為甚麼..我自己也回答不了我自己.我大概,需要回火星了.可能離開故鄉太久了.對那兒的思念,已經強烈到吞噬了原本的自己..我,幾時能再回一回火星呢?

希望能是近期吧..

煒筆止.

狂笑中....哈哈哈哈哈哈哈

2008-05-08T16:15:00.003+08:00

完了，毛都被剃光了，活着还有什么意思？

Blind Spot

2008-05-06T09:42:00.002+08:00

Despite how close someone is to your heart, definitely will there be a blind spot he or she never discover...

The debatable issue here is "The blind spot is a hidden angle with or without intention"

We always seek for someone who can touches our heart, listen to our unspeakable, understand our thoughts and reaches for our hands to be with us. The better he/she could do that, the more we are relief and warm when we are with he/she. On the other hand, are we able to do that for them in return? Unfortunately and inevitably, different individual speaks different accent.

When a partner is found, even get along or be together..how well could the partner of yours do for you? Is your partner good enough to let you fully reveal yourself? Unfold your heart requires great courage I believe. Everyone has their history written, unchangeable. That is their past. Foolishness and immature that took them all the way to today have left them stains. Rather big or small. However, how 'big' the stain is is a judgment that is not in their own hands.

Is everyone able to cast ignorance on their past or even accept an individual as his/her real self? Sadly, no. Therefore, blind spots are built consciously and unconsciously, scattered around the heart. Should we say they are being fake? Or should we say they are self protecting? Or should we say they are pathetic? Again, it relies on your own opinion.

Until this stage, maybe we should put it in this way. The least secret we have over someone, he/she will be the one we actually seek for. Until the day we are enclosed in 6 wood blocks, the secret(s) that are remained mystery will be taken into soil, unrevealed forever. And until then, we will be resting in peace with full relief.

IELTS Result....what an impact...sigh~~~

2008-05-02T09:41:00.002+08:00

Candidate Number 000396
Listening 8.5
Reading 6.5
Writing 6
Speaking 7
Overall Band 7

I tot will be somewhat like 8. Who knows...I over estimated myself. I never tot I would score 6 for writing and 6.5 for reading. Those 2 were among the 4 which I put high expectation on them. Sigh~~ moody....

翻覆難眠的夜晚

2008-04-28T00:24:00.003+08:00

已經在床上,翻來覆去了兩個小時.睡意無蹤可覓.
在這種夜深人靜的晚上,特別是週末,大家都在為來著的一個星期,養精畜銳.我,能做些甚麼好讓自己能萌生睡意呢?哈哈哈...摸不著頭腦.其實,都沒甚麼能幹吧?女朋友,週末有功課要努力的她,想必因疲憊二熟睡了吧.嗯..好好睡...朋友們,大概也無不如此.

聽著學友大哥的演唱會錄音,我唯有寫寫部落格打發一些時間.

本來打算今晚早點睡,明天早上要早起.重新勵行前兩三個星期放下了的晨運.前一排,工作很忙,晚上都很累.早起跑步都停了.最近發現好像又要發胖了.沒辦法,一來想保持健康,瘦瘦身,二來,遲些會要做個身體監察.希望身體會好一點.而且,有做運動,怎樣都會舒服些.可惜阿,在這種時候,還在打字的我,明天一定得作罷了.

在這種夜晚,其實如果沒真的要早睡的話,會是很舒服的時刻.我不禁想起,在就讀學院時,在NILAI的光陰.沒有一個夜晚我是沒在月光陪同下,靜聽環境至少一二小時方離開天台.我好喜歡那種感覺.很舒服,很寧靜..有一種難易形容的鬆弛.甚至,有時,爬上屋瓦,仰望天空,靜靜沉思.那兒空氣好,人煙稀薄.晚上,有城市聽不到的蟲鳴聲.真的太棒了...

除了那種舒適的夜晚,性情愛玩的我們,也在當時作了很多難以忘懷,可笑的事.譬如說,夜晚去偷溝渠鐵蓋(因為我們的被偷了)...哈哈哈...偷了幾個,因為大小不一,用不著的也沒還.哈哈哈哈..真的太可惡了.可是我們偷的是沒人住的屋子,大概還不算太過分吧．．．　：Ｐ然後又去偷摘人家的香蕉.整大束被我們給切回家了.哈哈哈哈..還不只一束,而是兩束.哈哈哈..結果吃不完..然後,學騎電單車,很笨拙.還好沒出事..提燈籠走山路...或者去走一些偏僻黑暗的叢林...哈哈哈..都是蠻刺激的..當然少不了通宵達旦,喝啤酒剝花生的時候..哈哈哈...年少的時候...真的是沒轍..

然而,這種日子,在這種歲數,是大概沒甚麼可能在有的了.一來,沒人會再陪自己這樣的癲,二來,在城市沒這種東西做,三來,約束的生活再不能如此放縱了.往事只能回味..

不知不覺,一點了.學友大哥還在唱呢..很喜歡他的聲音..希望現在自己能睡了.怎樣都好,大家好好睡吧.明天又是新的一個星期了.在下個週末的來臨前,努力加油吧!

晚安~

煒筆止.

電車站烏龍...兩擺..

2008-04-24T09:57:00.005+08:00

昨天早上,失魂的我,不知怎麼了竟然渾渾噩噩地下錯車.KLCC 才對,卻偏偏在AMPANG PARK 下了車.懵然的是,我明明知道停車的是在AMPANG PARK.哈哈哈...腳步踏了出外才警覺.收回腳步又很糗.結果車頭下車,車尾上車.來了一招神不知,鬼不覺.哈哈哈哈...

之後,回家時,和女朋友一塊搭電車回家.在過檢票器時,女朋友的TOUCH N GO卻縷試不成.總是過不了.奇怪地望了望她的手法.才發現那個大傻瓜竟然在用自己的身分證當作TOUCH N GO.哈哈哈...還一臉無辜的樣子.哈哈哈哈...真的是敗給她了..

一天兩次的電車站烏龍..就由兩個大傻瓜的傻勁鑄成.哈哈哈..偶爾的小烏龍,的確能讓生活更精彩.所以啊,朋友,別怕擺烏龍..因為~難得糊塗嘛...

煒筆止.

賤人...也不易做

2008-04-22T00:09:00.003+08:00

剛剛和好友去了一趟宵夜.炒面很辣.兩個大男人在飽受舌尖辛辣的煎熬同時,內心充徹著感慨.大家一致的覺得,賤人...原來也不易做.

今天早上,受到他的短訊.內容簡短,有一種很不自然的正經.我知道,他大概有甚麼事困擾著.相約好了10點喝個茶.他遲到了.10:30才到.隨著上車的那一刻,他說:"煒榮,我很不好~我好想哭.."動不動就愛鬧哭的他,習以為常.但,我知道,今天不然.他補說:"我不回去了."

訝異的我,沒顯多大的反應,緩和地問:"怎麼了?"

"我一生中,只會被這兩個女人控制和牽絆."

我明白到,對,是他生命里最重要的兩個女人.可是,到底發生了甚麼事?嚴重到,得留下來並放棄自己的前途?

"我妹妹出事了..."

了解他喜歡說話說一半,我依然沉靜地等他一一道說.了解的整個內容(我不在這裡說明,因為畢竟是他家的事)我只能附上一個深深的感嘆.拉得很長很長..真可憐他了.他的人生,特別在這一兩年內,實在是太戲劇化了.原來,戲劇的橋端是切切實實的例子.很難想像,我好友,竟然都碰上不少.

"你太讓我無話可說了.你的人生簡直就像戲劇一樣."

其實這一切的確蠻難置信.但真正讓他困擾的,是因為一顆不能放下的心,一個不願卸下的責任.他知道,眼前難得的機會萬萬比不上這兩個女人在他心中的價值.所以,他在有選擇的情況下沒了選擇.唉~我再一次深深的感嘆...

"不然你以為賤人那麼容易當.做個負責人的人,是要付出很大的代價的.與此同時,別妄想會有甚麼回報.有人懂得珍惜,已經可貴了.."這是我現在的想法.

最近,都有聽到人說."你真是一個好男人.", "煒榮這樣的男子很少了.", "找到你這樣的男子就好了", 之類的等等..等等..其實,我不知道為甚麼,我壓根兒也沒覺得高興,更沒有自豪.雖然在女友面前有耍耍樣.但其實,我根本不覺得是如此.他們想太多了.又或許,他們誤會了.

我很喜歡朋友們稱呼我奇怪的稱號.壞人,賤人,衰人..甚麼的甚麼的..可能比較符合我.讓我覺得"哈!當當賤人,壞人也挺不錯!呵呵呵呵...."

又其實我明白,賤人真的不容易做...只因為我也有放不下的心,不願卸下的責任...

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太好了!!第一關順利過了..

2008-04-17T12:13:00.004+08:00

接獲到好的消息,第一關成功闖過了.陸續來的,還有兩關.來著的星期六,會是很重要的日子.因為第二關的成敗,完全要看星期六的考試的頭.很緊張.雖然覺得自己應該應付得來,但仍然會有不安的情緒.

請賜我力量...

我好希望能順順利利.只要這次考試過關了,基本上,我就輕鬆了很多.至少,精神上的負擔,如釋重擔.最近頭經常會痛.不知道怎麼了.每次發作,都不會持續很長的時間.大概一小時到兩小時左右.有時一天還幾次.我想,大概緊張多了.哈哈哈..經常懂得勸人,自己卻是泥菩薩.

怎樣都好.上天千萬千萬得保佑我.讓我再順利過了這一關.下一關我會再加把勁努力.

甘巴爹!!

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幸福是每個人都應擁有的...嗎?

2008-04-14T23:46:00.009+08:00

是否曾經有說不出的煩惱?是否曾經有無法解釋的心事?不能釋懷的痛苦的確不是每個人都曾經歷,甚至去明白的..

但無論如何,我總覺得..其實難唸的經,每個人都會碰上.而當你碰上時,一而再的失敗唸出,會讓你內心浮生恐懼.陰影的影響力會從此讓你止步.此時此刻,內心感慨還真不容易形容.剛才,我看了部電影.黃石的逃亡.裡頭,是訴說當時日侵中國的一段故事.據說,這部戲,是根據當時一位記者所記載的日記而拍攝出來的.George A.Hogg就是那位記者的名稱.當時的他,偉大極了.因他而活下來的幾位青少年,其中幾位依然健在,成為伯伯們了.

他的偉大故事,我很欣賞,更敬佩他的為人.但是,我不是想談及他的偉史.而想寫下我看見一幕幕慘不忍睹的畫面的感慨.日侵,是中國永遠洗脫不去的陰影.當時的難民們,如果還存活著,他們心中的恐懼,所經歷的一切將是他們餘生的惡夢.一直纏繞著直到人生的最後一步...

我從新再問自己一次:幸福是每個人都應擁有的...嗎?如果是,為甚麼我會看到那麼可悲,那麼壯烈的場面?人在沒的選擇之下來到這個世界.我一直都相信,我們所遇到的所有轉折,其實冥冥中已經有了安排.然而,我真的真的覺得很傷感...為甚麼會有我覺得不公平的待遇?更奇怪的是,大家身為同類,真有那麼難感受到別人的痛處嗎?為甚麼能做的那麼狠心?為甚麼未能體會別人的痛之餘,還加以傷害呢?

日軍的殘酷,我們聽的多,光聽就覺得日本人是人人得以誅之,處之而後快.當然,祖先種下的惡根,我們不可能去向子孫討債.不能磨滅的事實確每一次都會勾起我內心的悲憤.可笑的是,我現在也很敬佩日本人.他們的智慧,才能,一些習俗,生活點滴然我不得不佩服.其中的矛盾,我自己也不太理解,也不會多加理會.

其實跟很多人相比,我的確很幸運.我遇到太多好人了.太多太多了.我應該做更多好事去回饋上天對我的眷顧.今天,我看見一個伯伯過馬路.他走得很慢.過了一條小路,我發覺我應該牽他.結果,在大馬路,我問他:需要我幫忙嗎?他客氣地回答:謝謝,我可以的.然而我很不放心,走在他身旁,陪他一步一步的走完.我不是想炫燿我彷彿做了好事.可是我想略盡绵力,作我能做的去幫人.我不是一個好人,我不會熱心到一有空就去做義工,不會把自己的多餘錢財做捐贈,更做不到甚麼偉大的事情.很諷刺,但是,我仍然希望,我可以做我真的做到的,去讓身邊的人,就算是一點點的幸福,也讓他們擁有.

希望我做得到.如果我沒那個榮幸去讓人擁有幸福,我也會深深衷心地祝福祈禱.人人都應該擁有幸福的...

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我的第一次...#3

2008-04-11T09:45:00.004+08:00

是一個不幸中的大大幸..
簡單一句,我被人搶了電腦手提袋..

今早把車開到了旺沙瑪珠,泊好車步行前往女友租家.昨天晚上她拜託我將電腦送去她家給她妹妹好讓其妹妹能帶回家,因為這個星期天她需要用到電腦.在前往的途中,我致電給她妹妹,通知她我就到了..將自己的電腦手提袋隨手掛在左邊肩上.

就這樣,成了獵物.一輛電單車飛快驶過,將掛在肩膀上的包包給搶走了.眼見它飛快的開走,閃過腦海回記起裡面的東西..嗯....好吧!繼續上路...走到女友家,把電腦給了她妹妹後,我就致電給爸爸,跟他略說了,交代甚麼被搶了後,問他我車怎麼辦?因為車鎖匙在包包里.還好有備匙,其後爸爸會將備用車匙拿給我.嗯...一切妥當了後,我就上班去了.

從來沒想過要報警,為甚麼?甚為馬來西亞人,大概不會問這種問題吧?他們根本做不到東西,也不會去為了這種事情做出甚麼.除非我是甚麼王族貴子,可能還會跟我說甚麼"我們會盡力的"就不了了之的算了.與其如此,倒不如省下麻煩時間.

說到傷心,其實到還好.因為,真的是不幸中的大大幸.我的包包里,有:車匙,廢紙,公司鎖匙,雨傘,和我的早餐一粒蘋果.就是如此.所以啊,是不是挺幸運呢?當然是啊!!我很欣慰,能有這樣的運氣.雖避不過這一劫,卻很好.人沒事,也沒甚麼大損失.最大損失,是要賠公司的鎖匙.因為是SMARTCARD,可能要賠幾十甚至一百多塊.唉~如果真要說傷心,就是為此了...

最後,還是要謝謝神明保佑.讓有我巧妙地遇上這個不幸中的大大幸的劫.

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我的第一次...#2

2008-04-09T14:37:00.006+08:00

第一次用PHOTOSHOP替公司設計要印在名片上的'羅果'.少過半小時的作品.其實,看著看著,會覺得自己怎麼弄的那麼肉酸.可是真的不會用.效果也是誤打誤撞下,弄出來的.

其實,公司要印名片給員工,所以要全體員工試試設計公司的'羅果'.哈哈哈...大家都是電腦設計員.壓根兒不會甚麼圖案設計.畫畫到還行,說到設計,還真是一籌莫展.沒辦法,嘲笑別人太多,自己作品一出場,也被人笑的不像樣.顯眼報~可悲啊~~

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審美觀

2008-04-08T09:58:00.006+08:00

每個人都有著不一樣程度,角度的審美觀..而這種因人而異的審美觀更是往往讓旁人對自己給予的置評摸不著頭腦.當然,這種比較個人觀點的意見,雖然在自己不認同的情況下,會使到自己啼笑皆非,又或憤而指責,卻其實應該聽了就算.因為,這純粹是別人自己的想法,他沒必要符合你的意見,你也沒義務要接納他的說法.

其實,我會寫這個標題的部落格,是因為昨天一些不堪入目的鏡頭盡顯眼前.真的是傷眼.我有一個想法,你不必認同,但我真的覺得如此.就是說,

醜不是罪,獻醜卻是罪大惡極

怎麼說呢?比如說,女子很常有露肚臍裝.但是,不是每個人都能穿,或應該說 '應該穿'.如果你的身材不表準,肚腩突出.那就應該有些自知之明.沒必要吧?難道就沒別的選擇了嗎?實在是太影響市容了..讓人覺得很噁心.你肥,那就算了,但是不需要向大眾炫燿你的偉績.

昨天,一個巨型的女人,肥胖之餘,也相當矮.整個個體是相當圓肥.我只是在形容她,並沒嘲笑她的意思.讓我覺得噁心的是,她在電車里頭,與她的伴侶過分曖昧的舉止.以及她非常猥瑣的表情,似乎要當場吞掉她的伴侶的表情..真的讓我不寒而慄.其次,另一男子,一直撫摸自己的褲襠,望著身前的女子.唉,好色也得有個程度...太不像話了...可悲~~

做了整天的功,疲憊的精神,在電車一站一站地等待,卻遇上這等畫面.真是累人...

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傷疤

2008-04-02T10:25:00.003+08:00

凝視左膝上的傷疤,思緒回到了3年半前.

一個清晨,正駛車上班的我碰上了目前最嚴重的一次車禍.當然,希望是我人生中最嚴重的.我不記得事發情況了.我只知道,我昏了.因為腦震盪,我短暫性失憶地忘了當時的情況.隱約有印象的是,對頭車開過中間分割,向我駛來.之後,就沒任何的記憶了.

不知過了多久,耳邊傳來陣陣喧哗聲.最為清楚的,是位婦女的聲音.想不起當時的對話了,但是記得她在盡力幫我,也是她將我拉出車外.是否也有別的人在幫助,我不知道.流了相當多血的我,已經虛脫,連睜開眼睛的力氣也使不上了.任由她或他們拖我出車,記得她問,怎樣聯絡得到我的家人.告訴她我家的電話號碼後,我又失去知覺了..

在被抬上救傷車時,我再度醒覺了.仍然緊閉雙眼突感昏欲,胸口鬱悶很想嘔吐.強忍之余,我向救傷員說我很想吐了.他說就要到了,叫我在忍一忍.的確,很快到了.被抬下車,著地的瞬間,我撐起了自己,往旁邊嘔吐.一番折騰了之後,無力躺下的我,甚感抱歉.要麻煩他們清理這堆'蘇州屎'.

前往急救,醫生監察我全身.輕壓身體不同的位置,看看我會不會疼.很好運,我只受了皮外傷.胸前骨骼走位了.替我縫補傷口,實在是有夠痛.我整個人彊直了起來,手捉牀邊.使盡力氣強忍痛楚.醫生沒打甚麼麻醉藥.現在我還記得那個情況.真的很痛很痛..

之後,我沒力氣的躺著,早在外頭等待的家人這時方得前來探望我.聽我姐姐說,看見我臉腫滿身傷和血跡班班時,很想哭.可是,一直勸自己別哭出來.在一旁的哥哥,已經以淚洗臉了.最終,自己也哭了出來.隨後,聽說,大堂哥和其妹妹也哭了.的確,我那時真的蛮傷.面目全非..可是也很感動,聽見他們為我落淚.

躺了半天,出院回家.精神恍惚,四肢乏力.我根本走不動.以輪椅代步,順利上車回家了.

兩個星期,我才痊癒.傷疤成了這次意外的表面後遺症.是否有別的,我也不知道了.

回說當時,我媽媽在半夜接到電話,對頭說:"你兒子撞車了,在甚麼甚麼路.你快來!"當時,我媽媽幾乎昏倒.火速趕到時,看見幾乎整輛車頭都不見了的車,而我因已經送往醫院,見不到我的情況,他們更是著急萬分.還好,我沒甚麼大礙..

另外,我很感激那位婦女.她救了我.雖然到現在,我也沒見過她,但是真的很感激.父母在我還在養傷時,前往道謝.我不能跟隨.痊癒以後,有嘗試聯絡,卻沒人接聽.謝謝你,阿姨..

最後,那可惡的渾蛋.撞了我之後,不知走甚麼狗屎運,竟然還能撥電話給朋友,將自己載走.遺留昏倒在車中的我在現場.所幸阿姨路過把我救出.

靈異的事件.
一,阿姨說,她在睡眠中聽到有個聲音跟她說:"你快點去救他,她現在需要你的幫助."因此,她醒了.但是很莫名其妙,她不知道甚麼事,也不知道'他'是指誰.然而,既然醒了,就去巴剎買菜.路上就遇見了再救我出來.
二,很多人說,玉牌能擋煞防災.我都帶著一塊玉牌.車禍後,玉牌也不翼而飛了.

奇怪吧.哈哈哈...怎樣都好,謝天謝地保佑了我.也謝謝阿姨..

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愚人節

2008-04-01T16:16:00.002+08:00

今天一早,收到艾蜜莉的短訊.

'大鍋.睡遲了.'

覺得好笑,怎麼睡遲了,還有閒情寄短訊給我.怎麼都好,回她說

'哈哈哈..要這樣"可愛"麼?既然都遲到了,不要太趕.小心駕車.'

結果呢~接到她的電話,一番笑聲讓我頓悟.今天是愚人節...炸到很夠力.很痛哩!!隨後,她一直強調她其實真的遲到了.哈!怎麼可能相信你啊..現在讀了她的部落格,才知她真的是遲到了.但少許吧了.
平時食得禾米多..我這種人的報應,往往在愚人節時,中招格外容易..真是怕怕..哈哈..

隨後,當然也騙了騙女朋友.騙她說,公司大樓沒開,沒人也沒電.曾經試過因公司電門壞了被關在外頭的我,讓她相信了這謊言.哈哈哈哈..整一整了她,讓我心情平衡了些.. :P 哈哈哈..

祝大家,愚人節快樂!!

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Pleased and Exhausting Weekend

2008-03-31T11:50:00.004+08:00

It was a great weekend when we left Kuala Lumpur with a crucial mission in Johor. 12 of us were to execute this mission, with no failure tolerable. It meant everything to our client and we must not fail him despite how tough this mission could be. Whatever obstacles that come in our way, must be eliminated with no doubt.

The night was long when we set our first checkpoint at Melaka. 1 hour plus drive took us to the center point of Melaka. We took the advantage to have the guys and gals who departed earlier waiting for us at the Capito restaurant while they filled up themselves to charge up. When we got there, the place was in a whole mess. We dared not to dig in with the available foods though we were running low of energy.

Seeing that we still got plenty time to spare, we decided to checkout the Jonger Street. It is the well known cultural street in Melaka, very similar to the Petaling Street in Kuala Lumpur. Huge variety of things can be found there; toys, souvenirs, garments, antiques, and the best out of all, the local foods. Foreigners always try to make their way to try out these foods that are known to be very delicious and with fair price. Cendol, sphere chicken rice, laksa and smoked chicken wings. I only got to try the cendol and sphere chicken rice, but that was later story. Carry on with the Jonger street walk, it was approaching half past 11, consider late night in Melaka City, booths and stalls were starting to show the sign of ending their day of business.

The street is not long, with normal walking speed and not taking the time to browse around, it will only take u 10 to 15 minutes of walk to reach the other end. However, when we saw hawkers starting to pack up, we were afraid that we could get no food for ourselves for the night. Quickly, we rushed to a nearest stall, where dumplings, chee cheong fun and mee were on the table, to get ourselves some bites. Hmm~ it was rather tasty anyway. Continue our way, in much slower pace, we browsed through almost each stalls that were still doing their business. A friend, Ah Wong (Paik Yin), appeared to be quite familiar with the place, played her role as a tour guide, showing us the restaurants that are located in that street and are famous with the foods in their menus.

Done with the walking, we then got back to our cars. However, we separated into a few gangs during the walk. My gang were the first to got back to the car park, unfortunately, it was our turn to wait for the rest this time. It was almost 1:30 when the rest finally showed themselves. Finally, we were on our way once again. When everyone was thinking that, "Yes, at last we can go towards our destination now and maybe get some nice rest before the early morning mission.", our trail leader, Mr Dylan, took us on a drunken trip. He appeared to lost his way and was taking us around the city. The same advertisement board was seen 3 times before we got ourselves back to the highway. That was totally classic! hahahaha..

Clock ticked, one hour later, we met up with our client at Johor. He took us to the rented terrace house, dedicated for us for the 2 nights stay in Johor. The house was spacious, clean and comfortable. None of us felt strange or uneasy. Everyone settled themselves nicely before we put on some games as bed time activities. We played big2 and chat around while one by one went to take their bath to refresh themselves from tiredness. Starting to get bored, few of us went out to search for mamak store. What a peaceful suburb where everyone rest so early. The street was totally silent. We actually drove about 20 minutes plus, on a street that had no cars, and was speeding quite fast yet still took us that long to get to the "nearest" mamak store. Thank god! It was really surprised, we actually felt so glad we spotted a mamak store. According to Dylan, there is a police station right opposite of the mamak store. That could highly be the possible reason why this mamak store is doing its business in late night. Anyway, with pleasure, we sat and made our orders.

In the deep night, breeze shivered all of us. Luckily I was in a long sleeve. Choon Chiet who was wearing his sleeveless shirt, was laughing at himself. Hahaha...when our drinks were served, in hot water except Dylan who ordered for a Milo Kosong Ais, quickly we sipped as much as we can to warm ourselves a bit. The taste wasn't that good. The thinness of the drinks were very close to tasteless. Anyway, we just grumbled to ourselves until our ordered maggi goreng were served. It was fine indeed and very soon after we cleaned the plates, we returned to our stay. The rest who did not follow to the supper were already in their sweet dreams. We got Johnson who was lying closest to the door steps to open up for us. Not taking any luxury time off, we found ourselves good nice resting spot and sleep.

I was awake before anyone else from the living room. Sound was heard coming from the kitchen. Few of the girls were awake and brushing the teeth in the kitchen. As soon as they were done, I went to clean up myself and knowing that we got quite a number of people, to avoid congestion as everyone will need to use the toilet for whatever business they will engage in, I took the initiative to get myself ready while they were still in bed. Another unusual thing happened then. We were going to have chicken rice for our breakfast. Hahahaha...that was really my first time seeing someone having such heavy breakfast.

Well, the mission will take quite a while, so, I did eat a bit of the chicken rice. However, I can't finish my part either. At 7:25am, we left the house and went straight to the beginning of the mission, Retrieve the bride. We decorated our cars, and before I forgot, one thing to marked down is, all of us who are the guy's gang, except 2 or 3 guys who were not with us, were all in red tone dressing. That was our uniform. hahaha...quite impressive right? Took a couple of photos, and amazed us was the bridegroom. He was so smart and nice looking in his white coat. The time had arrived 8am, we took off to our destination.

The leading bridegroom car was a Mercedes Benz, platted 9898 (forgotten the prefix), following by 4 MyVIs (I was one of the drivers) and a proton. We sounded the horn disregarding the noise to alert the girls that were assigned the responsibility to keep us away from the bride until we past the challenges ahead when we almost reached the house.

We gathered outside the door and as usual, the first stage was to give a red packet to the girls. Easy one, did not really hear how they negotiated the amount but was settled very soon. The coming stage was to finish up 2 bottles of carbonated drink in 50 counts. Holy crap, leaving us no choice, they started the count. Quickly, I took the first drink and drank until I felt the air almost burst out from my mouth and past to my friend. The count was fluctuating, they went quite fast in the middle and the 50 counts just hit around 30 seconds. We lost the challenge, the bottle started from my side was emptied, but the second was not.

Still, we were let in to the house for more challenges. A ridiculous challenge was waiting for us. 3 plates of flour covering 5 peanuts were placed on the floor. 3 guys were to lie beside each plate and another 3 guys will need to do push up and use the mouth to dig on the plate to locate those peanuts. I understand the push up and digging, but I still don't understand why 3 other guys were to lie there. Once again we lost. It was tougher than it looked like. When I was trying to find those peanuts, I forgot to hold my breathe. The flour went into my nose and throat. Choking myself, I couldn't stop coughing. I managed to got 4 peanuts only. Again, we lost. Thousand apologies to Andy, the bridegroom.

The next stage was even more stupid. 6 guys need to perform the trick. Divided into 3 groups, 2 guys each, first team had to hold an orange with their foreheads attached together, second group with their shoulders and 3rd team with their waists. They then had to spin 5 rounds without letting the orange fell off. Another failure. hahahaha...anyway, it was really stupid, so, forget it.

Then another even more ridiculous challenge. A bunch of grape was to tied at the bridegroom's "gun". The rest of us will need to squad in front of him, bite of the grapes and finish the whole bunch. Crap! First of all, it was not funny and the whole bunch?! Who the heck actually figure out all these games? Well, actually in my mind, I did not really mind about what embarrassment. We were suppose to accept whatever challenges that were planned ahead. After all, it is just a game. We just have to make sure we as the "brothers" should stand out and bring down all the obstacles to pave the way for the bridegroom to get his bride. This is what the brothers are to play. Sad to say, not everyone thought so. A few guys who were not our gang starting to ruin the party. Making all sort of nonsense and complain, finally, this game was ended recklessly. One of the guy was even shouting at the girl. Sigh...

Following up next, character mimic. The guys were to act according to the title, thing or character named. Acting out the significant characteristics of the title and get through. Our potential actor, Johnson did his part very well. However, in front of a few strangers, he still hold back himself a little. Anyway, he still entertained us very much. When came to artists mimic, I was the one to perform. I mimic Stephen Chow and I liked that most, and Bao Zou Poh, Bat Liong Kam, Yu Fa and Jay Chow. I totally disregarded my image and acted with my best. Hahahaha...again, I left black stains in my life.

The next game was to cover the bridegroom's eyes and had him apply the lipstick on one of the brothers and he will need to make a love shape on a white paper with his lips. Seeing no one was standing out for this event, I volunteered myself. This game was very easy because I had totally no image at all to care about already. Hahahaha...I tried my best to stamp the love shape and we past this challenge.

Final stage, an ice filled pill was left in front of the bride's room. The key to the door was mixed with several fake keys inside the pill. The bridegroom had to search for the key and open up the door. Once again, those guys messed the thing again. They were digging out the ice instead of searching nicely in the pill. Ice were scattered around the place. They got the key, leaving the place all wet. The bride's mom did not seem to be happy with that, and honestly, neither do I. They then trouble the girls to take the unnecessary effort to clean up the place. Then finally the bride was fetched.

Phew, finally we got to rest a bit after all that torturing. Hahahaha...Following the traditional practices, tea serving, god and ancestor pray, once again we departed and went to a far place for photo shooting. It was a nice place, the sea was dirty though. They took couple of photos and we just followed and walked around. After all those, we gathered together as the bride was going to toss the bouquet. The first toss was good, but no one actually rushed for the bouquet. I guessed everyone was embarrass. Holding back the steps, no one actually went near to it. Then, we proposed for a second toss. This time, standing closer, the bouquet went right into my hands. Hahahaha...it was funny, as I never thought so and kinda funny for a guy to get the bouquet actually. Anyway, it was quite a good memory for myself.

It was our free time then. The new couple were to return to their place and prepare for that night's wedding dinner. We decided to go to look for some nice food in Johor. Choon Chiet who is also from Muar, led us to the famous satay and otak-otak stall. Pity Emily who just recovered from chicken pox could not eat certain seasoning sauce, could only eat the satay and otak-otak. We had the wantan mee and fried noodles too. The satay was delicious, so was the otak-otak, I like the fish otak-otak more than the prawn. It somehow got a better taste and soft bite. After the meal, we visited the couple and return to our house for rest.

Everyone took their turn to wash up and the rest engaged in their games. We played mahjong, dice guessing, poker cards and 'cai-mui'. Emily was great, hardly won her but whenever I did, it was usually within the first 3 shouts. Hahahha...Cai-Mui only went around between Choon Chiet, Emily and I. Choon Chiet was weak initially, but he seemed to be very lucky that day. He kept winning after a few tries. After I got my bath, seeing everyone engaged in the game enjoying themselves out, I went towards the mattress and lied to rest a bit. The dinner started at 6:30. At 6, I was waken and within 5 minutes, I was ready.

We reached the dinner in time and most of us were arranged to hold a cylinder tube. I don't know what that called even in mandarin. You just have to twist the tube at the center, and the edge will pop, shooting out pieces of colored straps. As the couple enter the hall, we stood by the side and twisted the tube when the couple walked against us. The opening was short but quite impressing too.

The hall was actually a primary school hall. It was not air-conditioned. So, we were quite warm over there and the tables were quite small as well. It was a tight seat. But, we still enjoy the time. Keric and I were asked to help out to walk around from time to time to refill the guests' cups with liquor when they need. It was a easy job and quite a new experience for me. It was quite fun anyway, walking around to observe all the types of guests.

After the meal, when guests started to leave the place, the bride and bridegroom were busy taking photos with the friends and families. So, for us, we gathered ourselves for a drink. One of the boss, Mr Quah, was challenging almost each of us for a drink. He was especially picky on Emily and actually forced her to drank quite a lot. I drank 2 to 3 cups with them so I was fine. Paikyin, Keric and Emily were feverish after their drinks and got high. Andy noted us that he need to return and will come back to us later. So, we went back and waited for him.

When we reached home, Paikyin started to show her stupidity due to the effect from the alcohol. She was laughing like mad and with a bit clear, she quickly rushed to the second floor. People started to gather on the above level and enjoy their time. Being quite restless, again I lied down on the mattress and rest. Teck Wai and Choon Chiet were with me. After some rest, I woke up and took a short bath. I then sat and played with the poker cards on myself until Michael sat and chat with me.

Very soon, people came down. Emily and I then started the cai-mui again. This time, who lost, who drinks. Hahaha..with luck, she drank more. However both of us were starting to feel dizzy. Mr Quah joined us to play dice guessing. Continue with the drink, I knew I will get drunk soon. We stopped until Andy and his friends arrived. Of coz, I congratulated him and had a drink with him. He left very soon after his friends because he was already sleepless for 2 nights. Pity him, we let him go. We continued to chat a little and everyone was already sleeping when Michael, Ming, Quah and wife decided to leave. Sending them off, the rest of us went to bed.

Wow, it was really a long story. I think have to make it short and end up fast. hehehe

The next day, very early in the morning, someone was already hitting me with pillows shouting to wake me up. Silly Emily was showing her alcohol effect in the early morning. Oh my god! Dylan was snoring there nicely but she did not choose to stop him but was hitting me continuously. I did rest well throughout the night. So, I woke up and there she went continue to wake up the other.

We woke up and again played mahjong. Paikyin the big mouth saying that those who were playing were weak players and wanted to join the game. Switching players, she started off but kept losing. Hahahaha...Choon Chiet was also winning almost all the rounds. We packed up our things soon enough and it was the time to go home. Middle of that, we stopped at Melaka again and that was the time we had the cendol and sphere chicken rice. It was delicious but the sphere chicken rice was exaggerate. People were queue quite long to wait for their turn. The chicken rice are made in sphere, each is a mouth size. Know what? Adding one sphere costs you 30 cents. That is quite expensive.

Finish the meal and cendol, we started off home to KL. It was raining heavily and slowed us down. Got back to my car at 4pm and reached home 20 minutes later.

That is all about the weekend. Again, I wish Andy and Grace happy wedding, should them be happily ever after. And thank you for inviting me and let me experience the good time.

煒筆止.

無良無理兼霸道的 LCLY

2008-03-28T13:24:00.005+08:00

位於 Wisma Cosway 里的一間食店,二樓,名叫豐隆食店中心.

這間食店這間的店面很爛,跟一般街邊檔美甚麼兩樣,里頭也不會讓人覺得衛生乾淨.擺放在桌上任食客應用的食具,隨看起來已經沖洗過,可是卻還是很油.誰知,店爛,人更爛!平時從來對客人不客氣的她,在客人用完餐時,就算還在喝飲品,也會被逼著離座.本人親眼目睹,可憐的阿伯,連忙站起來,茫然無奈的表情,儘快把飲料給喝光離去.如果沒飲料在手的,更會遭到埋怨甚至指責,要你讓位,彷彿早走早著.

可悲的是,她依然有很多客人.可能你們會想,她總有她吸引客人的地方.或許吧,但我看不見.其實,她的菜單上的食物,在這環區算得上中等.並非便宜,但是還好.聽好,是菜單上的.她的人格,不用我說,甚至已經是公認的.我曾親耳聽在想去那裡用餐的人說,"樓上既事頭婆好懶懶屎既,唔愛去食啦!!" 除此之外,LCLY這麼文雅的綽號,也是我同事們為她取的.可想而知,她的人格多麼有問題.一副肥胖的身材,迷濛的眼睛,肥腫猥褻的臉龐,粗魯的舉止,相信不會是吸引人的地方吧?或許我形容的誇張,但我沒有誇大,句句屬實.

其實在於附近的上班族,食店得選擇真的不多,其價合理的更少.我相信在不多選擇之下,依然那麼多顧客光顧那間'黑店'也或許能明白.大家也只好疼惜自己的荷包.反正店菜單上的就對了.本人對於街邊檔,是絕無反感.大菌食小菌.向來抱有這樣的心態的我,對於街邊檔,更是首選用餐的地方.便宜就對了.然而,對這間店,真的是忍無可忍.其無良的层度實在是見所未見,更從未所聞.

今天,在店里,聽到這黑店女主人竟然收了一位工頭9零吉的經濟飯.天啊!!那是甚麼樣的經濟飯!!甚麼叫經濟飯?經濟的嘛,當然是價格合理,便宜的啊.9零吉的經濟飯,有的菜色是,加哩馬鈴薯,蘇東,和青菜..別以為量很多,適中而已.可能你會覺得我偏見,所以多少扭曲了事實,這也由得你,反正我也沒相片為證.要證實,你去去就好了.

我想,她不是腦筋銹透了,就是為了賺錢衝昏了頭.坐地起價!!因為知道大家選擇不多,生意總會有的.她,霸道了起來,再無良也無所謂.真的是可恨之極!!

可以明白,在市中心,你的店面租金貴,可你的食物不會比別人便宜,客人也很多.不是個問題吧?店面爛,地方髒,人格差..凭甚麼收9零吉的經濟飯.這和有格的餐館的收費,豈非不二?被問著為何這麼貴時,還大言不慚地大聲地說:"他拿蘇東嘛,蘇東很貴的!!"試問如果有人賣回她一碟9零吉的經濟飯,我看,她會把你罵得狗血淋頭.她自己也不會要啦.己所不欲,勿施於人.這非無良是甚麼?

我敢言,我的脾氣不差,這樣說話損人更是少有.可是,我並非在捏造,都是鐵一般的事實.我不會詛咒她的生意會做不下去,但希望有一天她能看到這一點.人會去光顧,並非你有過人之處,而是無奈於選擇有限.連你得夥計都覺得你難頂,你賺了一大堆錢,卻輸了你的人緣.

我不會再光顧那食店.決不!!同事們要去吃,我大可以自己吃.我不想影響自己的胃口!!!!!

煒筆止.

p/s: 算你利害,能在我部落格里有一刊.

被爱的感觉, 最简洁的一个抱拥, 也觉热烘....

2008-03-27T11:09:00.004+08:00

周華建的新歌 - 晴空.
剛聽第一次,就喜歡上這一句.很簡單,卻也很真實.

被爱的感觉, 最简洁的一个抱拥, 也觉热烘....

很欣賞他們才子的才能,能把故事意義,人間情緣,風景畫面,一切一切形容得絲絲入扣,簡單且美妙.想起哥哥張國榮的歌 - 追.

有了你即使沉睡了, 也在笑....

也是很強!充分的表達了那種幸福,打從心里發出的感受.很匪夷所思,有幾多人真的會因為找到了自己的所謂另一半之後,在夢里,想起他/她,很自然的把微笑掛上臉.相信,很少,可能只有小說或戲劇里才有.

自己更欣賞的一個情節是,神雕俠侶裡面的一小段故事.楊過在一次的興起,問小龍女."如果你是郭芙,你會選擇大武還是小武?"小龍女不暇思索地回答:"選你."楊過頓覺好笑的說:"不算我,如果你是郭芙,只有大武和小武,你會選誰?"小龍女想了想,說:"還是選你."

哈哈哈..她還真的是可愛到極點了..可是,楊過找得到他的真正伴侶.一般,怎麼會有人有這樣特別的答案?在打個比如的情況,任何人都會把選擇歸納於大武和小武.出奇不意的答案,縱然好笑,可是想信楊過心里的感覺,更是非詞語所能形容得了.只能說,羨煞旁人..

不知道你是不是把感情看得重的人,但是,希望你也有被眷顧著,好讓你也能體會到

"被爱的感觉, 最简洁的一个抱拥, 也觉热烘...."

煒筆止.

若有所思..水晶的力量

2008-03-26T11:33:00.004+08:00

晶瑩剔透,總然人觸目則乏起莫名的感觸,感情隨而被它帶著起伏..
無論在何時,它的出現,往往意於某種原因..小小的它,卻充徹著震撼的力量..

很多時候,我們已經忘了它的意義.一切已經是太順其自然,過於渺小,但是如果它恨恨地在你關心的人的臉上劃上痕跡時,它的渺小頓時不容你再小觀.你知道,它的出現是要你更加用心,更加細心去將痕跡輕輕拭去.

相信到這裡,了然指的是眼淚.你猜到嗎?

靈魂之窗,指的是眼睛.而從這窗留下的眼淚,又是甚麼呢?

靈魂的汗?心靈的血?這個嘛,因人而異吧!
但是,在我覺得,如果這眼淚,是在感情驅使之下而落下的話,它是一種精華.備受澈心的感情所醞釀出來的水晶.可能讀到這裡,你會覺得我幾乎是將其誇大,眼淚就眼淚嘛,說穿了,還不是一種身體的排泄物.的確,你沒錯!但是,我堅持與我自己的想法,我覺得眼淚是很棒的.它似乎有種力量,能帶出心靈上的感覺,替心靈訴說它的感覺.懂的你,關心你的人,能從你的眼淚看出你心里的情緒.

悲傷時,它替你帶出心靈上的塵埃,疲憊,辛酸..
開心時,它也能替你帶出笑聲所表達不出的極限..
感動時,它讓你了解你心里深深被觸動了..
多麼奇妙啊!!

我是一個不太暴露我內心世界的人.我不太擅長將里面的世界,形容得讓人覺得身在其境.我不懂得去說明,也不會想要去說明.很多時候,說了前半段,或交代了並非主要的重點,就不了了之地,似乎要身邊的人好像肚子裡的虫,知道自己在想甚麼,在打著甚麼樣的算盤.我知道,這是不對的,但是人並非完美嘛..

可是我的人,很眼淺.我很容易被感動,很容易熱淚滿盈.感動和傷心更加是時後滋潤我的臉頰.哈哈哈..真糟糕!!

落淚不會不好,但是別利用眼淚去向疼你,關心你的人討便宜.你會失去更多.眼淚是珍珠哦!!
可在你落下眼淚時,別掩遮,因為那時候,你心靈需要別人的關懷,別人也很希望能替你抹去那道讓人痛心的痕跡..知道嗎?

煒筆止.

星期天

2008-03-24T14:49:00.005+08:00

在朋友當中,不知不覺中已成為公認的飛機王.俗語說,先前有了預約,卻沒現身或應約則謂之放飛機.的確,一向疏於安排,兼有短暫性失忆症(STML - Short Term Memory Lost) 的我就理所當然地承續了這牌坊.

昨晚,接到了好友的電話,問我能否出去喝茶,因先前約好了一起去夜宵順便看球.其實也並非真的約好了,因為知道星期天得替母親與姊姊慶祝生日.加上女朋友可能會一起在家,所以和朋友說定,到時在看看情況.可是身在puchong的我當然沒能應約.哈哈哈...對不起了,害你沒得看球.

星期天的日子,還過得不錯..可是卻染上了傷風.被折騰了一整天,也浪費了不少紙巾.隨後竟然還延續到星期一,還附送一點點的頭暈以及頸項的疼痛.好不舒服..

一家人,如往常般,去了吃大餐,再切蛋糕.不同的是,今年,小小的姪兒,卻成了所有人的焦點.就連壽星主角們都別忽略了.1歲的他,做出許多搞笑無惡意的表態,讓各個笑開了懐.除了這個笑點,更讓人難忘的,是姐姐上演了一場拳擊比賽.七情上演的她,讓人確確實實地感覺到她的壓迫感,絕對不容忽視.
好心關切的我,奉勸了我姐姐的男朋友,絕對絕對不許惹她生氣.我們幫不到他.

呵呵呵呵...開玩笑啦.

而再特別的是,我打了一場出奇的棒球賽.比數是16-6.我恨恨地挫敗了對手.當然自己也累透了.拳擊賽也不賴,ko對手實在是易如反掌.但也了解到,氣對拳擊手來說是很重要的.

好了,到底,還是想再說聲,媽,姐,生日快樂!

煒筆止.

阿當海洋

2008-03-19T22:47:00.005+08:00

阿當的海洋,何處方是?
今晚的綿綿細雨,方佛在我內心的雪蒙上了一層霜..好冷..好冷...
冷卻的心,卻结凍不了靈魂的窗戶..視覺變得好模糊..此時此刻,好希望能潛入阿當的海洋,讓一切視而不見..

心理不好受,很納悶,很想放從地讓天空落下的雨,打濕我的身體,好帶走我內心的塵埃..我也明白,其感何只一心,淌血如注....

近來經常悶悶不樂,感情的波動也相當大..很多事情在等著我去整頓,很多事情要去考慮,去安排.我不能,我做不到天塌下來當被蓋.我需要去想,希望可能有機會悬涯勒馬.或許,不會那麼傷.或許,路不會變得更難走..大概是有點撩亂,活似盲頭蒼蠅,更像掉了指南針的船隻,飄蕩在無邊無跡的海洋.備感壓力的我好像有點喘不過氣來.好擔心做得不好,很怕失去的,不是我所能承受的...

心里很不安...我不想說,但我知道我完全失去了安全感.這種時候,孤軍作戰的我能成功嗎?成敗完全摸不著瑞兒,也得自己承擔失敗的結果..這段期間,還真是莫大的折磨..可是更可怕的是事情才剛開始...無奈,賠上了精神去應戰,現下也面臨自限的經濟狀況,更讓我覺得頹廢.不得不問問自己:"我真的走錯了嗎?"

或許,在別人眼中,我是自尋煩惱.可是,如果真的身同感受的話,我好希望能廳一聽妳的意見.事情的嚴重性,我想除非你站在我的立場想,不然你很難理解.我到底在擔心甚麼.不曾經歷過,你是不會了解的.無論我怎麼用言語去形容,對你來說只是一種輕描淡寫的形容,你會明白,可使你不會感受到...

唉...好想去外界走走..無奈卻沒有時間,沒有機會,更沒有錢..
望著窗外漸漸放小的雨滴,我知道,我內心的爭扎也隨著乏力而變得舒緩多了..我不想在去想那麼多了..希望一切會過去..希望我不會那麼沒用,那麼沒出息..

迷路的阿當徘徊在十字路口...很不安,惆悵..孤坐於石塊,仰望黑暗天空沉思..

煒筆止.